"Cotillion."

Holy, man.

I know I haven't posted anything recently. Haha. I've been so stressed this past week.

So, yesterday was my "Cotillion." I must say, we actually pulled it off. LOL. Two months of unorganized preparation.

It was a lot of fun. I got ready at my Ninang's house. Manang Karen did my hair and make up. I was late to my own party. Haha. 'Cause like, my mom got her hair done first. Then Chiara 'cause her hair was a mess. Then it was me. Ohhh man. We all left for church at like, 1:45. Haha.

Once I got to church, all my friends were there. Haha. "HEYYYY." Kindof thing. Mm.. So, I got ready in the Youth Room. My Auntie Bing wouldn't leave the room, so I couldn't get dressed. LOL. We were like, "AUNTIE. LEAVE." And she kept talkingg.

We didn't start the event until 3:30. Haha.. And hour and a half late. Boooo. The party ended at 6-ishh.

Ohh man. So it was good. LOL. I'd talk about it moreee, but I am TIRED. I think I'm gonna sleep some more.

BYE.

Neverending.

It takes Calvin and I at least 10 minutes to say goodnight now. I love that he and I don't say goodbye anymore.

I miss him already.

Hot stuff.

Num, num.

Chris kicked it with me in my car this morning. It was pretty chill, yo! OH. So, like.. I was going to my First Hour class.. When I realized that I didn't have my ID. More importantly, my phone. LOL. So I went back and got them. Haha. BOO.

We got our tests back in Pre-Calculus. Dang, I was SO CLOSE to a B. SOOO CLOSE. I was like, .2% away. That like, partial credit on one problem! Super boo to the max. Bleahh. So, Economics was alright, I fell asleep yesterday, so I had no idea what Stroup was talking about today. Haha. Shh..

Mrs. K. was like, doing unnecessary.. Talking. She made us go over the class syllabus. Again. We have this poster thingy due this Friday. I've got to start working on that. Gross! After Spanish, Jennifer and I went off-campus for lunch. Well, we actually went somewhere. I always go off-campus. Haha. We went to Momo's, that one place behind the Police Station. Sandwiches are yummy.

Fourth Hour was interesting. So, the bell rang and everything and I was walking towards the AP Office, yeah? And like, this one dude was blocking the way. The hell? Apparently, he was causing trouble for Marcos, Gabe, and Mrs. Zimmerman. But, uh. Yeah. So I was standing there until after the tardy bell rang. Then. THEN, that boy says, "Damn, you a sexy bitch." Wow. Really? Swear, he was tryna get slapped. If we weren't in the AP Office..

ANYWAYS, Fifth Hour was fun. We did a lab on freezing point depression.. And unknown chemical stuff. Whoa, baby. Waggle kept telling me to stop fooling around 'cause I'm 18 now. I wasn't even doing anything! I was putting away the striker thingies we used to light the bunsen burner. Haha. Boo. Mm.. Sixth Hour was boring. Miss D. had us read 1984. The book's pretty good, there are just some suuuuper boring parts.

After school, I took Chiara home. Then I went home and did stuff on my laptop. Haha. I uploaded the photos from yesterday's practice.

I left at 5 'cause I needed to stop by a couple places before going to class. I went to Auntie Jackie's house first to drop off her and Auntie Annabelle's invitation. And then.. I went to Jeff's house. Man, I haven't him or Edwin in SOO long. Jeffey cut his hair.. He looks like some Chinese gangster now. Haha.

Class was so boring. I'm almost done, though! YEAH.

I got out of class early, like 8:45. That was cool.

Calvin asked if he would look better with only one piercing or two. I think he'd look hot with two. Haha. OH, OHHH. We're thinking about getting tattoos together. I really want like, his name. Or our initials intertwined.

Aww. I'm excited.

Sad face.

I haven't been able to receive Calvin's texts lately.. Boo. BOO. It's like, I dunno. WHY?

Sleep deprivation.

Calvin and I pulled an all-nighter.

Maaaaan, I am so tired. Haha. Like, everything irritated me today.

Characteristics.

So, I was asking Calvin to help me list some characteristics for my Cotillion. Haha. My Auntie Bing wanted me to list 18. I did that, and Calvin made another list. AWW.

1. Drop-dead gorgeous.
2. Passionate.
3. Adventurous. ;D
4. Hott.
5. Kindof lazyy.
6. I-would-be-a-lesbian-for-you-if-I-was-a-girl.. Ness. (That's a characteristic for now. ;D)
7. Chillin'!
8. Super duper cute.
9. Nerd. ;3
10. Super huggable.
11. Modest. (That's truee~)
12. Romantic.
13. Beautiful. (You're still super beautiful at your worst. ;3)
14. Caring~
15. Not suuuper girly. (I love that.)
16. Perseverent.
17. Jailbait material. ;D
18. Andd, the best person to have come to my life.

I'm the luckiest person in the world to have you, Karen. I love you so much!

Aww. AWW.

First day of adulthood.

I didn't really do much today. I tried People Photography.. But failed.


Chiara was my model. LOL.

Birthday, birthday!

SO, SOOOO.

Today is my birthday! Haha. I'm a pedophile now~~~ HOT, HOTT.

Calvin really made today special. He wished me Happy Birthday at 12 his time, then called me at 12 over here. Aww. AWWW. Rarar. He stayed up until two just to wish me Happy Birthday. He sang the first line of "Happy Birthday." Aww! SO FREAKING SWEET.

Aha. He called me earlier than usual this morning, though. It was cute! Hella made my morning. So, I finished getting ready suuuper quick. Haha. 'Cause I had to put ballooons, roses, and stuff into my car. ALL FOR SARA. Lmao.

OHHH, YEAH. Dad bought me a Nikon D60! YAY. YAYYY.

Haha. So like, I got to school. Then! Leslie and Chris came with me to DeToro's class so I could place Sara's gifts on her desk. Mrs. Wallace let us in since DeToro wasn't there this morning.

OH. Leslie gave me a bouquet of flowers. Haha. They're so pretty!

Haha. Because of that, no one knew it was my birthday. Everyone thought someone asked me out to Prom.

Calvin called me right after school. Aww! And, and. I spoke to Miriam for the first time. She has this really cute voice! She wished me Happy Birthday. Haha.

Max told me to pick where they were supposed to eat since it's my birthday. Haha. I said McDonald's since I was craving.

After school, I went to Starbucks to study with Daniel. I have a test in Pre-Calculus tomorrow. GROSS. We were there for about an hour and a half? About. We were working on our review questions, and out of 20.. We only answered three. LOL. I'm failing that test tomorrow.

I went home around 5-ishh? Yeah. I started playing with my camera. YAY. YAYYYY. You have no idea how happy I a- Man, I'm spoiled. Dad always gets me what I ask for.. BOO.

Calvin wanted to webcam since it's still my birthday. Haha. Aww. He really is making my birthday suuuper special. So we're webcamming right now! He's so cute. He's finishing my birthday gift. Ohhh man. I really want to see it. But I have to wait until next week. Haha.

He keeps like, looking at his hand. Then, he'll draw.. Then look at his hand again. Haha. How cute!

Oh man. He went to go brush his teeth. Brush, brushh~~

AWW. Calvin just sang "Happy Birthday!" He has some nice vocals. Dangg. Hot.

Mm.. My birthday's almost over. And Calvin's like, falling asleep hardcore. Haha. We're both playing Solitaire. I've lost so many times already. LOL.. Swear, I'm gonna play until I win or somethin- MY BIRTHDAY'S OVER.

Whoa, baby.

__________________

Calvin, you already fell asleep. Thank you so much for making my birthday so special. You really did make today extremely memorable. I love you, baby. Always and forever.

Sick day.

I stayed in bed all day. Gross!

Well, kindof. My brother woke me up so I could take him to school. Since she won't do it. Lmao. It's whateverr. So, sooo. I took him to school, came home and went back to bed.

I texted Calvin for a while, but kindof knocked out. Haha. I woke up around 1-ish? And he was already out of school.

At like, 3-ish? I went out 'cause Lolo called me in to make payments on my dress. Then, then. I did some super secret "buy stuff for Sara's birthday" shopping. Lmao. And then! I came home and cleaned up my car a bit.

Oh, this morning.. I left the headlights on. Yeah, you can guess what happened. LOL. So, I took the truck when I went out.

But, yeah! I cleaned up and dad came home. He helped me start up my car. It was stupid 'cause like, I could've done it myself since I had the truck and my jumper cables. Lmao!

Mm.. I'm still in bed. I'm so laz- AWW. Calvin just wished me "Happy Birthday." It's not my birthday yet, but it is in his time zone. Rarar. He's so sweet!

He really does make my day better.

At times like these..

"Babee. I'm going to sleep, now.
I really hope you're feeling better.
I don't want anything to happen to you.
If you wake up in the middle of the night and can't sleep,
you can call me if your throat's not too bad.
Or you can call me, and we can talk online.
Goodnight, love. Sleep well. I'll talk to you soon.
I miss you. I love you. You're my world, Karen.
I'll always be here for you.
Goodnight~ Loove you."

..I really wish you were here with me, Calvin.

Great.

I'm sick the week of my birthday. Really? REAAAALLY?

You know..

My birthday's coming up.

I've always, always hated celebrating it. I mean, yeah.. I'll be a year older, awesome. More responsibilities.

That's not my problem, though. Every year, it's the same fucking thing. It's because of that woman. Swear, this year has got to be the worst. Ever.

Okay, a Cotillion sounds cool and all.. But I never asked for it. She makes it seem like she's doing me a huuuuge ass favor by throwing some stupid party.

Because I said that I never asked for the party, she goes, "You're not going to college; Never ask me for anything."

Fuck that shit.

Procrastination.

Yeahh.. Didn't do crap today.

All I did was eat, fall asleep on the couch, and eat some more. I was gonna play basketball with Chiara, but she never contacted me. Lmao.

I took a bath, but it was cut short. Mara called and asked if I could pick her up from the train station. So, I went and did that.

My parents and my brother went out to eat while I was on the way home. I kindof didn't want to go because I wasn't dressed and wasn't hungry. Haha.

Mm.. Maybe I'll go do my homework now.

Maybe.

What a waste.

I slept the freaking day away! I planned to do homework this morning.. But, I just woke up. THE HELL? You know what woke me up? Someone called the house. I guess I'm pretty used to Calvin calling in the morning. Haha.

Boo. I miss him. I felt so bad! I would wake up every couple hours, text him, then fall back asleep. I'm kindof wondering what he's up to right now. I just texted him. Twice.

Rarar. I should be doing homework now.. I just don't want to get out of bed.

We'll see how the rest of the day goes.

Lunar New Year.

Haha. So, today is the start of the Lunar New Year. YAYYY. Year of the Tigerrr. Rawr.

Last night was hella fun. I hung out with Anthony, Peter, Claire and Kyle. My main cuzzos. We were suuuper bored at Ong Bac's house, so we kindof went to Denny's. Lmao. The whole time it was, "Shut up, Claire." LOL..

Peter's treating her like Meg from Family Guy. Lmao.

So, yeahh. I went to Denny's for the first time. That was fun. We ended up staying there until midnight. Celebrating the New Year at Denny's. Awesome.

We made bets on whether Claire could finish her food or not. My brother lost three dollars. Haha. Anthony, Peter, and I were amazed by how much Kyle can eat. Maaaan, Kyle's a beast. LOL. I guess you eat a lot when you're a swimmer.

Uhm, uhm. After Denny's, we went back to Ong Bac's house. And everyone was HELLA drunk. Like, hella. Lmao. Anthony's dad proposed that my mom stay in San Jose at his house. Gross.

My cousins and I were watching Ethan play this Batman game thingy.. It was funny 'cause we kept playing this one stage of the game over and over again.

THEN, I left to go home. I probably got home around 2:30.. Then I called Calvin, and he fell asleep on me. Boo. I made a video for him. YAYYY.

Mm.. I'm actually on the phone with Calvin right now. Haha. He's trying to make me pick a song for him so I can sing him to sleep. Aww.

Valentine's Day.

Calvin said the sweetest thing today:

"Babee! You'll always be my Valentine, no matter what day, yeahh?"

AWW. I want to hug him. He really is the most sweetest guy I've ever met.

Sweet dreams.

Webcammed with Calvin last night.

You know, I sleep soooo much better when I see him just before going to bed.

Practice.

We finally finished our Hip Hop routine. Everyone else just needs to catch up.

Ootz.

Hmm..

I was suuuuper sleepy this morning. I was like, falling asleep while talking to Calvin when he called this morning. Haha.. School was alright. Not much happened, really.

Let's see.. AFTER SCHOOL.. I hung out with Sara. Yayy. We kicked it at my house for a bit. Yup, yuuup. We raided my refrigerator and everything. Sara was being dirty. She was talking to Jeremey. OOOH. Dirty girl. Lmao. So, yeah.

Went to class and stuff. Calvin kept me entertained and everything. Haha.

WELL, I'm tired.

Where's the baby?

Calvin and I started talking about having children. AWW.

Boo! I'm excited.

Hopes and wishes.

Why is it that every time I look at the clock.. It's 11:11?

"Did you make a wish?"

Calvin asks that every time I bring it up. My answer is always the same, though.

"Nope. I already have you."

I know that we've been longing to be together. But right now, I'm just happy that you're a part of my life. I've said that a lot, but it's true. You're more than I could ever dream of, baby.

I truly believe that you and I are on that road to true love. I can't say that my feelings for you will never change, though. Of course, my love for you grows with each and every passing day. I'm happy knowing that I'm able to love you with no limits. I honestly can't get enough of you, babe. I'm constantly thinking about you and I miss you all the time. Even though we're far apart, we've found ways to communicate. It's what makes our love unique and it's definite that it'll exceed even that.

Calvin, I'm really looking forward to our future together; Loving you, always and forever.

Kodak moments.

I want a digital SLR camera. BOOOOO.

Brush, brush.

Calvin went to go brush and stuff. I'm so used to listening to him brushing his teeth. It's so cute! He flosses, too. Haha. Dental hygiene. Hott.

So I kindof slept the day away. Didn't go to church or anything. I've been in a bad mood all weekend. Mostly 'cause of her.

Calvin always makes my day better, though. I don't know what I would do if he wasn't here for me. I love him so much.

Bitch.

Woooow. I'm seriously pissed.

Swear, she wanted this stupid party. So I'm letting her throw one. I'm allowing her to do whatever she wants. All I'm asking is to have a few of my friends be a part of it. She was okay with that. But. Buuut, as soon as she saw my list of friends, she bitches. Fucking shit, man.

Calvin tried to make me feel better. He did.. Kindof. I actually started crying, though. You know, it's times like these when I really need him here with me.

Another month down.

Happy Anniversary, baby!

Sooo, it's been 3 years and 4 months since we've gotten together. You know, I love that we haven't changed our date. Especially because during that year we weren't together, I know that deep down.. We were, and still are, connected.

You mean the absolute world to me. I'll lose everything if I lost you again.

I love you so much, Calvin. Always and forever.

Wedding dress.

Haha. Today was fun.

After school, I kicked it at Sara's house for a bit. Patrick had to drop off food for Smokey Blues, so we went and did that! At the school, we were waiting in the Student Parking Lot for Patrick to come back. It was fun. 'Cause like, we were trying to see how far my car will go without stepping on the gas pedal.. Lmao! It just keep going. Even over speed bumps and everything. We circled the parking lot about 4 times. Patrick even got into the car while it was still moving. Haha.

Then she and I dropped Patrick home, and then went to get the fitting for my dress done. That was interesting. The dress fits perfectly. Mom wants me to save it for my wedding. The hell? Lmao. That means I can't gain weight. LOL.. Calvin thinks the dress is beautiful, so I'm happy. I really wish he could be a part of my Cotillion. It would mean so much to me. He still wants to celebrate my birthday once we meet. That'll be in like, May. Haha. Aww! Our first date for my birthday.

Mm.. Mom wanted me to buy KFC. So I went and did that. Ohh man. Half an hour for chicken. Haha. The manager ended up giving me this chocolate thing.. As compensation. I felt bad, 'cause she was hella lecturing the employees before they called me up for my order.

OH, YEAHH. Guess what? I got accepted into San Francisco State. YAY. YAYY. Calvin hella wants to get into UC Berkeley now. Mm.. I kindof hope he does. 'Cause I'm definitely going to SF State if I don't get into University of Minnesota. I'm still hoping to get accepted, though. Hmm..

Seriously..

No practice today 'cause of Smokey Blues.

I've been hella pissy lately. This shit going on with Mara has really.. Rarar. Tell me something, if you're serious about someone, does that mean you'll let them control your fucking life? I don't get it! I'm so annoyed. Maybe it's because my view on a serious relationship is different. But, still. I don't know about you, but I wouldn't want to be treated like a fucking dog.

Make a wish.

Mm.. Today went by sooo slow! Rarar. But at the same time, I was entertained. Haha.

I didn't really do much today. After school, I took Sara and Patrick home. Sara and I were hanging out in my car again. Haha. THEN, we went inside and raided her refrigerator. Chinese food is hella good~~

So I stayed at her place until I had to leave for my night class. Man! So boringgg. Swear, I just want to hit my teacher. Lmao. OH, that chick didn't show today. I wonder why..

Ah! I really don't feel like typing. Calvin's bothering me. <3

Did you know?

I love Calvin Woo.

Blacklight.

So, today.. Was the start of Hoopla Week at Tracy High. It's kindof like Homecoming, but for Basketball. Haha.

I heard the Blacklight Rally was stopped all of the sudden. Like, some chick threw her bra onto the floor while this one artist group, New Era, was perfoming. Lmao! The hell?

I didn't go to the rally, though. Instead, Judel, Noelle, Leslie, Chris, Jennifer, Mitch and I all went to go eat Pho. Yummy! It was hella goooood.

After we ate, we had about an hour to kill until practice. Oh, yeah. Practice is now and Jenny's. Since Leslie moved to Lathrop. It's more convenient now, except.. Jenny, Thomas, Sara, Patrick, and I are all celebrating New Year's this month. LOL.. So our weekends are busy.

Practice was alright. I guess we made progress. I felt bad for Jomar 'cause he had to choreograph on his own. And no one was listening. Boo.. Anyways, after practice, I took Jennifer back to my house. Then her mom picked her up!

THEN.. Nyisha from the Art Institute in Orange County called. 8 grand per Quarter. And there are 7 Quarters for the Photography program. Plus other expenses, for the entire program, it'd be 60 grand. Whoa, baby. That's a lot.

Ah, I'm tired. Long day.