Honestly.

I don't know what to do anymore.

Swear, I'm at this point where I just don't care. Ugh. All this stress, irritation, frustration.. It's driving me crazy. Bleah. I don't know.

On the brighter side, I've decided to go to San Jose State. Great, huh? Free housing and such.

It's only Monday.

Ugh. I just got home from practice. Maaaaan, my feet hurt. LOL. I did everything in heels today 'cause I didn't want to go home and get my Chucks. Haha. I was pretty sure that if I go home, I wouldn't go back to practice. Lmao!

Today was good. Mr. Hern is still on maternity leave. And, uh.. Yeah. I didn't do math at all. I was working on my watermark thingy for my photos. I think it's turning out alright. I really like this cursive-y one, but I might use that for my tattoo. Mm.. It might be too girly on Calvin, though. Haha. Hmm~~

Well, I came up with this one with a "K" inside of a "C".. I just need to do stuff to it. Maybe I'll get Calvin to do stuff to it on Photoshop. Just 'cause I suck. LOL.

Classes were shorter than usual 'cause we did prep for STAR testing.

OH. So my brother drove to school today, yeah? And like.. The keys to the Corolla used to be attached to my lanyard. BUT, BUUUUT. Since my brother took my keys, I just grabbed the keys to the truck. FORGETTING MY LANYARD. Lmao. Woooow. I had to get the ugly temporary ID sticker thingy.

I don't like it when the sticker starts coming off, so I would rub it against my shirt. The whole day everyone kept asking why I was rubbing my boob. Haha.

Hmm.. Calvin's at the park right now. LOL. That's funn.

Bleah. I'm so tired. And it's only the beginning of the week. Booo.

El Domingo típico.

Webcammed with Calvin last night~

I don't know if he did or not.. But I think Harvey came in and started talking to Calvin. Haha. Hmm.. Mom came in around 8-ishh and yeah.

We actually got to church early. Haha. Like.. 10:30. So my brother and I made it to the morning class and stuff. Church was alriiiight. Noah's walking all over the place now. Aww. What a cutie. I talked to Uncle Robert about colle-OH, YEAH. I got into San Jose State. Lmao. I'm still unsure if I want to go or not. I'm waiting on my acceptance letter.. 'Cause I forgot what major I chose. LOL. Shh..

Anywaysss. Mom asked me to drive home. So, I did.

I got home around.. I don't know. 3:50-ishish? Calvin was asleep by the time I got home. Haha. Boo. He woke up to do homeworkk. Then I fell asleep when he went to go eat dinner.

Man, I sleep waaay too much.

Dude, I'm starving. LOL. I'm gonna go look for food as soon as Calvin leaves to take a shower.

Prom.

Soooo. Today is Prom Day. Awesome, huh? Haha.

So, Thomas texted me last night asking if I could take photos of their group before they leave for Half Moon Bay. I didn't exactly agree to it nor did I decline. Lmao. I should've said no.

Buuut, I didn't. I got over there around 1 and stuff. Took pictures of everyone kindof just waiting inside. Haha. Thomas' dad kept telling me to get dressed so I can go with them. Honestly, I don't want to go. It wouldn't be worth it for me since the person I want to go with isn't even here. Hell, I'd be texting him the whole time anyways.

Mm. I started taking some pictures of couples. I think I did about five. Haha. That's okay with me 'cause the group photos took forever. I even lost my voice trying to get them to pay attention to me.

Bleah. I didn't really get to text Calvin often 'cause I was taking pictures. Even when I got home, I knocked out hella quick. I just woke up about an hour ago. Boo. Well, we're talking now. So I'm happy.

I just realized I left my Soft/FX filter on my lens.. LOL. So all the photos have a.. "Soft" look to them.

With your help or not.

I'm still going.

For the first time in my life, I'm fighting for something I want. Something I need.

I don't need you to bring me down.

My story.

Okay, so like.. I was telling Daniel and Sam about how I got parking yesterday morning.
My story went:

"I was late, yeah? And I was thinking.. 'Oh, crud. I don't think I'll get parking. But I'll check it out anyways.' SOO.. THEN THE GUY PULLED OUT AND THAT'S WHEN I CAME."

LOL. Ahh. Swear, I didn't notice until Daniel started laughing.

"Stupid Daniel! I meant he pulled out of a parking space right when I got to the parking lot.. Goshh. Stop laughing!"

He kept untying my shoe after that. Lmao.

Cockermouth, Cumbria.

LOL.. How embarrassing is it to say that during a presentation? We presented our powerpoints today in English and this one poet was from Cockermouth, Cumbria. Haha. Gross.

Mm. So, soooo.. Daniel and I were messing around in math. Lmao. He kept untying my shoes and and taking my pen. What a jerkk. Haha. Just kidding. Maybe. Economics was okayy. We took a "test." Well, not really. Stroup passed out our Chapter 10 tests, but said we could use our notes and textbooks. Lmao.

Spanish was okay. Not much really happened.

We had La Costa for lunch. Haha. Mexican fooooooodd. Burrito.

Fourth Hour was.. Boring. All I did was file while Faisal made fun of me some more. LOL. Even Suhrab started to joke around with me. They love that I'm hella gullible. Lmao. Mm. Took a quiz in Chemistry today. I think I bombed it.. Or got like.. A 30 out of 40 or something. Haha. And, yeah. We just presented in English. Yayy.

Practice was kindof.. Eh. It started an hour late again. Jett came by to pick up Patrick (who wasn't there). LOL. We practiced in heels today. That was interesting. My feet hella hurt right now. I haven't worn heels since my Cotillion. Haha.

Uh.. I'm kindof just doing this 'cause Calvin's working on homework right now. We were talking online until I accidentally called him. Ahh! Num num. We're kindof talking on the phone? Kindof. I'm bored. Rararar. I'm like, trying not to distract him right now. Haha.