Part two.

Calvin's Graduation gift came in today. YAY~! I hope he likes it. Haha.

I feel bad. I really want to go to the ceremony, but I'll be going to Minnesota in July.. Boo. Well, I'm super excited about giving it to him. <3

Ahh. I couldn't help it. Haha. Babe's gonna know about part two of my surprise. Kindof. He still doesn't know what it is yet.

Slacking.

It's been a couple days since I've posted something. Haha.

Because of practice and whatnot, I haven't been getting my homework done. LOL.. I'm always so tired that I end up knocking out hella early. Bleahhh.

I mean.. I even skip school just to catch up on homework. Lmao. So badd! Ugh. Kill me.

Tomorrow's the last day in Tracy, though. From 4 to 9. Damn. Today was a really productive day. We're almost done. One more transition, then it'll be clean up.

I'm tired..

Hell week.

They say practice every day this week. But, uh. I guess there isn't practice tomorrow. Cool.

Practice today was alright, actually. Fairly productive. We really cleaned it up. Mm.. I have all these cuts and stuff on my legs. Lmao. I don't even know where they're from.

We just might make it.

Anyways.. Calvin's taking his Behind-the-Wheel Exam tomorrow. That's exciting. And his performance with Jay and Harvey is Wednesday. I really want to see it. Haha.

Ugh. You know, allergies are seriously killing me. I get headaches and all that jazz. It's terrible during practic- God. I just felt a sharp pain on my right side..

I think I'm gonna rest a bit. Calvin fell asleep, so I have nothing to do.

A deeper understanding.

I'm scared.. And he knows it.

American Eskimo.

CAN YOU IMAGINE THIS NEXT TO KUMA?! If we breed this with a Chow Chow.. It'll be an American Eski-Chow.

Or some other stupid name I'll come up with. LOL.

Short, sweet..

And to the point.

That's how I like it. Don't know what I'm talking about? Well, ask anyone who went to practice and find out.

Lmao. Maybe I'll just vent. Again.

Unnecessary meetings. Awesome. You printed out the agenda for May 2nd. You didn't have to go over it like we're children. "This is what we're doing on that day. Don't forget. Questions? Ask me after practice." Oh, heyy. That took like, 5 seconds. Daaaamn. Record right there.

Because of that.. We didn't start until five. Not even, possibly close to 5:30. So, what? An hour and a half of repeating shit? Yeah, really productive. We're totally going to get this down before next Sunday. Good job, everyone. Proud of ya.

I love you more.

So Calvin and I are arguing about who loves the other more. LOL.

Man, we've been going at it for about an hour and a half. I think I'm winning. Haha. We're arguing about random shit, though. Like.. "I love you more because your mascot is a Bulldog." The hell? Lmao.

Haha. We're hella going at i-LOL. I lost..

Bleah. Bleahh! Cheater, baby.

I almost gave in when I saw this. LOL. I love MSN.

Nothing Without You.

"I wear my heart on my sleeve
and I don't care who sees;
I just wanna give you love.
Through the storm, through the rain;
Girl, I swear I'll never change.
'Cause baby girl, I'm so in love with you.
You can take everything.
'Cause it don't mean a thing
if I don't have your love.
Girl, you are the one thing I can't lose.
I'm nothing without you."

Honestly.

I don't know what to do anymore.

Swear, I'm at this point where I just don't care. Ugh. All this stress, irritation, frustration.. It's driving me crazy. Bleah. I don't know.

On the brighter side, I've decided to go to San Jose State. Great, huh? Free housing and such.

It's only Monday.

Ugh. I just got home from practice. Maaaaan, my feet hurt. LOL. I did everything in heels today 'cause I didn't want to go home and get my Chucks. Haha. I was pretty sure that if I go home, I wouldn't go back to practice. Lmao!

Today was good. Mr. Hern is still on maternity leave. And, uh.. Yeah. I didn't do math at all. I was working on my watermark thingy for my photos. I think it's turning out alright. I really like this cursive-y one, but I might use that for my tattoo. Mm.. It might be too girly on Calvin, though. Haha. Hmm~~

Well, I came up with this one with a "K" inside of a "C".. I just need to do stuff to it. Maybe I'll get Calvin to do stuff to it on Photoshop. Just 'cause I suck. LOL.

Classes were shorter than usual 'cause we did prep for STAR testing.

OH. So my brother drove to school today, yeah? And like.. The keys to the Corolla used to be attached to my lanyard. BUT, BUUUUT. Since my brother took my keys, I just grabbed the keys to the truck. FORGETTING MY LANYARD. Lmao. Woooow. I had to get the ugly temporary ID sticker thingy.

I don't like it when the sticker starts coming off, so I would rub it against my shirt. The whole day everyone kept asking why I was rubbing my boob. Haha.

Hmm.. Calvin's at the park right now. LOL. That's funn.

Bleah. I'm so tired. And it's only the beginning of the week. Booo.

El Domingo típico.

Webcammed with Calvin last night~

I don't know if he did or not.. But I think Harvey came in and started talking to Calvin. Haha. Hmm.. Mom came in around 8-ishh and yeah.

We actually got to church early. Haha. Like.. 10:30. So my brother and I made it to the morning class and stuff. Church was alriiiight. Noah's walking all over the place now. Aww. What a cutie. I talked to Uncle Robert about colle-OH, YEAH. I got into San Jose State. Lmao. I'm still unsure if I want to go or not. I'm waiting on my acceptance letter.. 'Cause I forgot what major I chose. LOL. Shh..

Anywaysss. Mom asked me to drive home. So, I did.

I got home around.. I don't know. 3:50-ishish? Calvin was asleep by the time I got home. Haha. Boo. He woke up to do homeworkk. Then I fell asleep when he went to go eat dinner.

Man, I sleep waaay too much.

Dude, I'm starving. LOL. I'm gonna go look for food as soon as Calvin leaves to take a shower.

Prom.

Soooo. Today is Prom Day. Awesome, huh? Haha.

So, Thomas texted me last night asking if I could take photos of their group before they leave for Half Moon Bay. I didn't exactly agree to it nor did I decline. Lmao. I should've said no.

Buuut, I didn't. I got over there around 1 and stuff. Took pictures of everyone kindof just waiting inside. Haha. Thomas' dad kept telling me to get dressed so I can go with them. Honestly, I don't want to go. It wouldn't be worth it for me since the person I want to go with isn't even here. Hell, I'd be texting him the whole time anyways.

Mm. I started taking some pictures of couples. I think I did about five. Haha. That's okay with me 'cause the group photos took forever. I even lost my voice trying to get them to pay attention to me.

Bleah. I didn't really get to text Calvin often 'cause I was taking pictures. Even when I got home, I knocked out hella quick. I just woke up about an hour ago. Boo. Well, we're talking now. So I'm happy.

I just realized I left my Soft/FX filter on my lens.. LOL. So all the photos have a.. "Soft" look to them.

With your help or not.

I'm still going.

For the first time in my life, I'm fighting for something I want. Something I need.

I don't need you to bring me down.

My story.

Okay, so like.. I was telling Daniel and Sam about how I got parking yesterday morning.
My story went:

"I was late, yeah? And I was thinking.. 'Oh, crud. I don't think I'll get parking. But I'll check it out anyways.' SOO.. THEN THE GUY PULLED OUT AND THAT'S WHEN I CAME."

LOL. Ahh. Swear, I didn't notice until Daniel started laughing.

"Stupid Daniel! I meant he pulled out of a parking space right when I got to the parking lot.. Goshh. Stop laughing!"

He kept untying my shoe after that. Lmao.

Cockermouth, Cumbria.

LOL.. How embarrassing is it to say that during a presentation? We presented our powerpoints today in English and this one poet was from Cockermouth, Cumbria. Haha. Gross.

Mm. So, soooo.. Daniel and I were messing around in math. Lmao. He kept untying my shoes and and taking my pen. What a jerkk. Haha. Just kidding. Maybe. Economics was okayy. We took a "test." Well, not really. Stroup passed out our Chapter 10 tests, but said we could use our notes and textbooks. Lmao.

Spanish was okay. Not much really happened.

We had La Costa for lunch. Haha. Mexican fooooooodd. Burrito.

Fourth Hour was.. Boring. All I did was file while Faisal made fun of me some more. LOL. Even Suhrab started to joke around with me. They love that I'm hella gullible. Lmao. Mm. Took a quiz in Chemistry today. I think I bombed it.. Or got like.. A 30 out of 40 or something. Haha. And, yeah. We just presented in English. Yayy.

Practice was kindof.. Eh. It started an hour late again. Jett came by to pick up Patrick (who wasn't there). LOL. We practiced in heels today. That was interesting. My feet hella hurt right now. I haven't worn heels since my Cotillion. Haha.

Uh.. I'm kindof just doing this 'cause Calvin's working on homework right now. We were talking online until I accidentally called him. Ahh! Num num. We're kindof talking on the phone? Kindof. I'm bored. Rararar. I'm like, trying not to distract him right now. Haha.

Back on track. Kindof.

I did not want to go to school today! Lmao. But I have to.

Bleahhh. Mom hella pissed me off this morning.

I ended up staying, though. Haha. We had a substitute in Pre-Calculus again. That was interesting. It's our second substitute this year. Our first was yesterday. Lmao. Can you believe that? Haha. Economics was okay. Stroup wasn't here. I worked on that math review packet that was assigned on Monday. I don't see why Seniors have to work on that if we're not even taking the STAR test next week. Waste of paper! Bleah.

Spanish was.. Oh man. It made me really wish I did skip. LOL. Gah. It's whatever. Lunch was cool. I had to go clear my absence, so I gave my keys to Judel and Jennifer. Mm.. We did homework in my car. Haha.

Fourth Hour was interesting. Faisal kept making fun of me, while Suhrab was helping me with my math. LOL. After they left for their lunch hour, I got kindof bored. So I worked on trying to file all the referrals and whatnot. There was hella! Juniors had a freaking stack. No lie. I was only able to alphabetize all of the paper. Haha. I'll be filing tomorrow.. Maybe.

Chemistry was fun. Kindof. Waggle was staring at me the whole time. LMAO. While he was taking roll, he hella called out "Karen! Two in a row. Keep it up." Wooow. He was talking about my attendance. Anywaysss. I kindof understand what we're doing. Kindof.. Haha. Hmm. We went to the library for Sixth Hour again. AHH. You don't even know. Okay, so like.. I finished my power point, yeah? And me, Jessica, Dylan, Natalie were playing Solitaire. All of the sudden we hear "Playing cards is a referral. Right now, I see four referrals." We're like, the fuck? Just 'cause you have arthritis and can't play games on the computer. Just kidding. But that librarian is a bitch, though. Shh..

Sara drove today so I didn't have to take her and Patrick home. I was supposed to go to Sara's house to work on Menu Assignments for Spanish, but dad told me to stay home. Haha. As soon as I got home, dad asked "Which car do you want to drive?" Honestly, I kindof want to drive the Z3.. But it's like.. Yeah. Tracy High students are jerks. LOL. They'll probably fuck the car up or something. I might start driving it next week, though.

Rarar. Time for homework. Hella shit to do tonight. Gross. GROOOSSS.

Solitaire!

Haha. So, I'm in the library again. I finished my power point, so I'm playing Solitaire. LOL.

Lmao. We're making fun of Raymund. He's not completely gay yet. Shh..

Mmkay. So like. Almost everyone in my row are done with their power points. So like, Down the row it's.. Solitaire, Solitaire, Solitaire, Spider Solitaire, Pinball, Solitaire, power point, power point. Haha. Awesomeee.

Gosh. I'm so freaking hungry right now.

And Dylan keeps talking about sexual thi-We got caught. LMAO.

Time to log off. BYE.

Shh! We're in the library.

Haha. I'm in the library at school right now. I'm supposed to be working on my Poet Power Point thing on Sonia Sanchez. Man, the life of a CP English student. Compared to IB, this is like.. Hardcore Middle School stuff. Lmao!

I'm so lazy right now. Bleahh. I'm texting Calvin and stuff. I'm thinking about playing Solitaire since I'm in the corner of the room. LOL.. Solitaire. Swear, that's the only game that gives me a headache. It's like.. I won't stop playing until I win or something. Boo.

Anyways, I'm bored. I'm gonna work on my power point some more then do other stuff. Haha. YAY FOR PROCRASTINATION.

When push comes to shove.

Grin and bear it..

"Karen, I love you.
I'm so glad you're in my life.
Nothing seems to be going our way right now.
It's hard, babe. It hurts like hell, really.
But it's all worth it, baby.
I can't wait until the day we're together,
and do all the things we have
wanted to do all these years.
It's hard waiting, but I'm happy
because I'm waiting with you.
I love you, Karen, and I know you love me.
Always and forever, Karen.
Always and forever."

God.. Why are you doing this to us?

Jude's parking.

Lmao. Not as colorful as the others. But, hey! They're similar to the actual cars we all drive. LOL. The black one is Mitch's. Gray is Jessica's. Burgundy is mine. Red is Leslie's. CAN YOU GUESS WHICH IS JUDE'S?! LOL. LOOOOL.

*Posted 'cause Judel asked me to! Hahaha.

Rejection.

Man, does it hurt. So, I'm no longer waitlisted for UMN. Great, huh? Ugh. It's whatever, I guess.. I'm trying to get Calvin to reconsider going to UCSD. It's so much money. 50 grand. Wow. He and I can still see each other, right? We've waited almost 4 years.. A little while longe- God, who am I kidding? I'm so tired of waiting.. Well, it's for the best. Honestly, I would hate for him to leave his family and friends just to see me. It'd be a selfish request if I asked him to do that.

Anyways, I'm just killing time before practice.

I went to Livermore with Jennifer. We bought donuts and stuff. Checked out the theater. It was closed. Haha. Then after that, we went to visit her dad at the cemetery.

After we talked to him for a bit, we just kicked it in the parking lot. I called UMN Admissions.. And it totally killed my day. Bleah. Jennifer was like, making me cry. Haha. She kept saying that she was sorry and stuff. Grarar.

Bleahh. Well, I should get going. We'll see how practice goes. I'm not even excited to go 'cause I know no one is going to be there yet.

Think about it.

So, a lot has been on my mind lately.

1. Calvin.
I'm always thinking about this guy. There will never be a time when I won't be thinking of him. I love Calvin Woo, always and forever.

2. College.
Ugh. I've never been so anxious about ANYTHING before. I'm still waitlisted for UMN. Buuut, on the application tracker thingy, it says that my application is being carefully considered. I really, really hope I get in. Honestly, I think Calvin would feel alone in San Diego all by himself.. Rarar.

3. School.
I am so tired of school already! I just want it to be over with. Then again, I just don't want to totally blow it off. The next 8 weeks are going to be hell for me.

4. Surprise.
I'm taking action. I've talked to dad about it. And he's in consideration mode. I've spoken to several people and they're excited about me coming up this Summer. Haha. Mm.. I really hope I can pull this off.

Last day of Spring Break.

So...! Today is the last day of break. Gross. I don't feel like going to school tomorrow. Haha. I'm like, so lazy.

Mm.. I gained so much weight. Haha. All I did this break was eat and sleep. Yeah, I went out a couple times.. To go eat. LOL. Well, at least I caught up on some sleep. I guess. I am not going to enjoy waking up at 5:45 tomorrow morning.

Actually, I may even wake up later than that. I don't think Calvin is going to call me in the morning. That would suck. Late on the first day back. Lmao.

Oh, so.. Something's been up with my laptop lately. It freezes often and last night, it totally died on me. Boooo. So, most of this morning I've been trying to fix it. Like, every time I try to start it up, it freezes. I gave up and ended asked dad for help.

Hella fixed it in no time. I'm using it right now. Haha.

I'm texting Calvin. Yayy. Man, even though I talk to him every day, I miss him more than usual. Bleah! Weeeeell, he and his mom just bought hella food to bring back home. My mom did the same thing when we went to Hawaii. LOL. I remember when we came home, mom shipped Goldilocks' food stuff to Hawaii 'cause they don't have one over there.

Dude, thinking about Goldilocks makes me want fresh lumpia. That's heeeeella good! Oh man.

Anyways, I'm gonna try and convince dad to buy my plane tickets. Shh. ;D

You know, I think Calvin knows what I'm planning.. Mm.. Babe, if you know, better tell me now. <3

Kuma.

THIS IS MY FUTURE DOG. Ahh! What a cutie.

Who knew..

..Love could hurt this much.

I'm on the phone with Calvin. He made it safely to Los Angeles and is spending the night at his Aunt's house. Well, he just fell asleep.

The tears just won't stop flowing now..

I miss you already.

Calvin's leaving for San Diego today.

We webcammed for a little bit before he had to leave. Gosh, when we were saying goodbye I love you, I couldn't help but tear up. It's not because I won't be seeing him all weekend. I'm still able to text him and talk to him online and stuff.

It's more of.. I don't know. I guess it's the fact that we have an opportunity to actually see each other, and there's no way we're able to do so.

It really hurts, you know?

Hell, I'm crying right now.

Venting - Segundo paso.

Bleah. Today was alright.

I was getting so annoyed at practice because no one was there. Like, I arrived at 12. No one. 12:30. Still no one. Ten.. Twenty minutes later, Jessica and David show up. Then, Leslie and everyone else. I'm like, okay.. We're going to start an hour late. Pshh. We didn't officially start until 1:45. And that's when I left.

Seriously, seriouslyyy? When Jessica and David were there early, Jessica should at least started teaching David the new steps for the Waltz. Instead of waiting for everyone to arrive. Ugh.

So while, Jessica was teaching David, we all reviewed. Waste of time! Not even everyone could couple up. Actually, it's more of, everyone already knew the freaking steps.

Grararar.

White, sandy beaches.

Calvin called me a little later than usual. Since he started class at 9 today. He was telling me that he'll be in San Diego for the whole weekend.

I'm happy for him. He gets to see where he might be attending school for the next 4 years. I'm sure it'll be a good experience..

..So why am I so hurt about this?

So close, yet still far away.

'Cause you should be my lady.

Took mom to her doctor's appointment today. Afterward, we went to KFC to buy chicken for her babies. Haha.

Mm.. I went to Chili's with Chiara. Ohhh man. I ate so much! Haha. Food baby~ After that, we went to chat at the Mainstreet Jazz Cafe. We got Italian Pop again. Haha. Strawberry! Yum.

Ah, man. I don't even feel like writing today. I'm seriously about to knock out. Calvin went to sleep already. Booo. I miss him so much.

He starts class an hour later tomorrow. That's exciting.

Okay, I'm tired. Sleep time. Sleeeeeeep.

G'nig- OH. Guess what? Allen asked me to be in his music video. Haha. He's doing a remake of Wedding Dress. An English collaboration with J. Reyes and Tommy C. OOOOH. I'm going to be the bride and Jett's the groom. And Allen's the uh.. Guy I argue with. Lmao. I dunno. Exciting, eh?

'Kay. G'night. Haha.

Three and a half years.

Wow. Three years and six months.

You know, it's hard to believe that you and I have only known each other for this long. It feels like we've known each other for.. Well, forever.

Okay, yeah.. We still have a lot to learn. But we have the rest of our life together to learn everything about each other. I'm really looking forward to that, baby.

Rarar! You're so sweet, loving, understanding, handome.. The list can go on, babe. Overall, you're just so amazing. I'm so happy that you're in my life. I can't say that enough. I don't know what I would do if you weren't here for me, honey. Falling in love with you truly is the greatest thing that has ever happened to me. So far.

I know meeting you in person will definitely top that.

I love you. So very, very much. More than anything in the world, babe. Grarar. I honestly can't stand being apart from you. I need you with me right now, baby. Three - soon to be four - years is way too long of a wait, you know.

Well, two months until Summer, love. I can't wait to finally see you. I really hope you like your surprise. <3

I miss you, need you, love you. Always and forever, Calvin.

Easter.

Eggs! YEAHHH.

So, I went to church. That was good. Noah was being a cutie. Haha. He was holding a giant Hershey's bar. AWW. Cute, cute.

After church, I went to Anh Danh's house. Swear, they did some hardcore renovations. It's been years since I was last there. It looks good, though. I remember I used to go there ALL the time. Haha. My dad used to do some construction stuff back when I was younger.

Anyways! All we did was gamble and eat A LOT of food. Lmao. That's how my dad's family celebrates the resurrection of Jesus Christ. Good stuff.

We left around five and it was raining hella hard! When we got back to Tracy, dad went to go put gas into the car and we went to Savemart.

When we walked in, dad was all, "Oh. I forgot the bucket." Bucket? LOL. He was referring to those carrier thingies. Ahh! So Asian.

I'm talking to Calvin on the phone right now. He's calling me names and stuff. BOO. He's threatening to hang up on me. Watch, he won't do it.

Oh man. I'm starting to get quiet on the phone, I should continue talking to him. Haha. <3

Boringg.

It's Saturdayyyy.

AND THERE'S NOTHING TO DO. Rararar. I'm going to Stockton later, though. It's my cousin's 21st birthday. Awesomee.

First day of Spring Break.

I woke up at like 8-something. Texted Calvin, then fell asleep again. Haha. I woke up again at like, 11-something and Calvin texted me saying that he was going to go watch Alice in Wonderland. That loser. I wanted to watch that. Boooo.

So, Chiara spent the night and stuff. I got out of bed extremely hungry. Haha. So I asked if she wanted to go out for food. Then, we left! Yayy.

We decided to go to IHOP. Haha. Man, I go there waaaaayy too much. It's whatever, though. Chiara wanted to go. So we were there for good hour or so. While we were leaving the restaurant, I asked her if she wanted to drive.

LOL. She sucks so bad! It was hella funny. We drove around the mall parking lot; the area that's hella empty and stuff. She got better, though. So that's good. She was freaking out because she saw the mall security driving around and doing their thing. But it was whatever. Haha. So I let her drive around for about 20 minutes.

We got some Italian Pop at the Jazz Cafe. I got strawberry. Yummy~~

I played Guitar Hero for a bit. I ended up unlocking all of the songs and got bored. LOL. Chiara went home and I went back upstairs to reclaim my laptop. Haha. Chiara had it all day. Ahh.

I just took a shower and I'm feeling refreshed and cleann. Yeah!

I've gotten the sudden urge to play video games. Or play piano. Haha. Hmm~

I'm talking to Calvin right now, and he's craving cereal. Mm.. I want some, too. Maybe I'll go grab some. Haha.

Hmm. Boring day! I hope I get to do something exciting for break. Lmao. Or maybe I'll actually catch up on some sleep.

April Fools.

I'm mad at Calvin. Rararar.

So Max told me that Calvin kissed someone. Not just ANY someone - A guy! A guy named Tom. What is this?! Tom better be careful once I meet him. Bleah! Now he's gone ahead and fell asleep. WHILE I'm upset with him.

What if I really got mad about something as stupid as this? Lmao.