Oblivious.

So I just found out that one of my Followers on Blogger is a dear friend of mine. LOL. Great, huh? I didn't even notice until I read a few of her posts. I should chat with her on AIM sometime.

Anyways!

I'm watching Calvin and Max play Super Mario Galaxy 2. It's interesting. Mm.. You know, it's not that he completely ignores me when he's playing videogames, but he's totally oblivious to his surroundings. Haha. I mean, he responds when I talk to him, but I don't know how much of it actually gets through. Ah, but I love him. At least he doesn't ignore me, right? I think that's a good thing. Mm. Definitely a good thing.

Ah, man.

I've definitely been getting lazy with these posts. Well, kindof. Haha. I suppose it's more of.. I'd rather spend time with Calvin than on my laptop typing.

So why am I posting something now? Mm.. Calvin, Hien and Bunny left to join bro bro at some session and I was.. Tired? I don't know. I slept for hella days this morning. You know, I think it's because I don't want Calvin spending more than he's supposed to. Like.. If I go to the session, he'd be paying for me to kindof just stand there and watch. Yeah.. Also, I should finish up a few things I started. Productive, yes. Maybe. Kindof..

Mm.. So right now, I'm home with Jay. Haha. We're both filling out applications. IT'S SO BORING. Ahh. This one application I received from this one store wants me to introduce myself. I don't even know what to write. Lmao.

Oh, Calvin wants me to apply for Spring Semester. I'm down for it, just worried about finances and stuff. I mean, I'm not even a resident yet. Remember when I was waitlisted for the University? Yeah, my application was withdrawn 'cause I wasn't a resident. I'm not lying, either. The dude actually told me straight up. Bun'cha bull, huh?

Aha. So you know, I don't type these up all in one go. So like, I was typing this, filling out applications (online and paper), doing stuff on Facebook and playing Solitaire. LOL. Not exactly multi-tasking, but yeah. Haha. I can't stick to one thing for a long period of time. But, buuuut. I just finished filling out the applications I got last week. Yes, yes. Last week. YEAH.. Laziness to the max. You know me.

So, it's already 8:23. Calvin's been gone a while. I miss him. I really don't like being apart from him. Rarar. I wonder what it's going to be like once he starts school and I get a job. Seriously, thoughh. The wait is pretty brutal. Ah, gotta get used to this.

I'm like, sitting in the kitchen right now. I feel bad. I want to keep Jay company, but it's a bit humid downstairs. I'm not really diggin' it right now. Hah- He just came up and started calling me lame. The hell? Haha.

Oh man. So you know what I love about Blogger? It saves drafts. LOL. I just had to restart my laptop 'cause my iTunes didn't want to open up for me. It's almost 9 now. Interesting, huh? I don't remember when I started this, though. Hmm.. Eh, it's whateverr.

You know what iTunes reminds me of? Music surveys. Lmao! Calvin and I did used to do them for fun when we were killing time. It's like.. You answer questions and stuff based on what song pops up on your iTunes when you click next. On shuffle, of course. We got some pretty weird answers. LOL. Mine were so bad. Haha.

What's the first thing you think about in the morning?
Pushin' Drugs by Andrew W.K.

Haha. So badd.

This post is getting pretty long, huh? Yeah, I'm just trying to kill time until Calvin gets home. I still don't want to go downstairs. Haha. Kindof. I'm getting kindof hungry. Kindoff. Oh man. I think Jennifer is hom- Yeah, she's home. I can hear her. LOL. Shh.. Xiah looks so happy when she's home. It's kindof sad watching him stare out the window. Aww..

Right now, I'm watching Chinese commercials. They're pretty interesting. A lot of medicine and stuf- DUDE. I just saw a moon cake. I kindof want one now. The ones my Aunt makes are super bomb to the max, yo. Haha.

Oh, yeah. Calvin and I were gonna go to the State Fair with a couple friends today. Why we didn't go? Kindof because of money. Haha. I've never been, but from what I'm hearing, you'd be spending a lot on food and such. Who did go? Let's see.. Brent, Miriam, Max, Vanessa, Nolan, Michael and Jennifer. Brent seemed upset 'cause we didn't go. Haha.. Boo.

Num num. So, it's been a little more than a week since I've moved up here. It really doesn't feel like it. I feels like.. I never even left, you know? Hell, it feels like I've always been here. Oh man. I hear Xiah barking. Does that mean they're homeee? I hope so. I need to charge my laptop. LOL. Maybe. It has another twenty minutes on it. Whooop, they're home.

Recap.

Ohhhh man. It's definitely been a while. Haha. So, I'm gonna give you a quick update.

Sunday:
Went to San Francisco with Sara. That was fun. I went Gatsby happy, though. Haha. Oh, yeah. There was a festival thingy going on in Japantown. That was interesting. So many Japanese people in one place! I actually understood some of them. Man, too much anime when I was a kid. Shh..

Monday:
Judel, Jennifer, Sara and I were gonna go to Stockton to eat at a sushi buffet. That didn't happen. Haha. Instead, we went to Kengo. This day was all bad, though. So we were going to Kengo, yeah? And we totally forgot that it was closed until five, so we were like.. Oh man. What to do? Well, they all went with me to get my hair cut. Haha. And, uh.. Guess who we saw there? My mother. Great, yeah? Pshh. Not even. It was awkward as hell. Lmao. I don't think she noticed me, though. Maybe.

Tuesday:
My flight. It was.. Bleah. Haha. Crying children on both of my flights. I was like, dead tired once I landed in Minnesota. Mm.. Seeing Calvin after so long was amazing. I missed him so much. I seriously forgot about everything when I saw him. Aww. Haha.

Wednesday:
Went to a session at the University. That was fun. I have so many bug bites, though. Gross.

Thursday:
Max's birthday! We went to Akita. Haha. That was yummy, but I ate so much. I was dying from cramps and fighting a food coma. Max is like, old now! Haha.

Friday:
Went to another session at St. Thomas. I got even more bug bites from walking to the parking lot and back. Did that like, 4 times. Haha.

Today:
Didn't wake up until 5 in the evening. LOL. All bad. I was starving, so we went to go SmashBurger with Calvin and Max. And thenn, bro bro wanted to go to this one bakery with cupcakes and stuff. It's actually pretty cute in there. The cupcakes are good and I love the macaroons. Haha. The frosting on the cupcakes is a bit too sweet for me, though. I made Calvin eat it. Lmao. I'm watching them place Marvel vs. Capcom right now. They're so competitive. It's getting pretty hot, so I might get off my laptop now.

You know what I noticed? I wrote more about last week than the last few days. LOL. I wonder what that means..

Booked.

I didn't do anything today. Haha.

Well, I did my laundry. I think I'm gonna finish up packing tomorrow. Yup, yup. Sounds like a plan.

I even watched the Food Network. I gotta say, that's my favorite channel. Yeahh.

Oh, yeah. Tomorrow, Sara and I are finally going to San Francisco. Lmao. We've been putting it off for hella days. Sara's mom has something planned for us in the evening, too. Hmm.. I'm pretty curious. She kept asking if I have tomorrow night free. Haha.

Mm.. I also have a sushi date with Judel, Jennifer and Sara in Stockton. Yummyy. All you can eat for 11 dollars. Pretty hardcore. You know, if someone ever asks me "What's your favorite food?" My answer would probably be sushi. No doubt about it. I was always, always trying to figure it out. Haha. I finally know now since I'm always eating it.

So my next two days are pretty full. It should keep me occupied until my flight. We're leaving for the airport at two in the morning Tuesday. I'll probably be the one driving again. One last adventure time in California, I bet. I wanna go to that donut place again. I never got to eat mine. And I paid for it! Boooo.

Ah, man. Foreals, though. This wait is nothing compared to the three months I was waiting to finally meet Calvin. LOL. It was so hard trying to keep it from him. Even when I got there, I had to wait two more days! Mann, the wait was killer. Hien was being a douche by asking me if I wanted to meet up with Calvin the day before their graduation. Haha.

Anyways, I was reading when I noticed that I didn't post anything today. I think I'll get back to that book now. Peace outSIDE.

Counting down the days: 3.

Is your name Medusa?

Because when I look into your eyes, I get rock hard.

Haha. I'd totally use this if I was a dude.

Counting down the days: 4.

Mi Corazón.

I love you so much. In just five short days, I get to spend every day with you. I can't wait, baby. I know I will be leaving a lot behind, but it will all be worth it once we're together. I told you, yeah? I'm willing to give up everything just to be with you. I don't regret any of it, baby. I never will. Being with you is all I want and will ever need. I've been so lost with you, baby. And now that I finally met you, I know I definitely cannot live without you. I need you in my life, Calvin.

I really want to be with you right now, love. I can't wait to do every thing with you again. It feels like it's been years since we've been together. I miss you. I need you. I love you. Always and forever.

Counting down the days: 5.

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God fucking shit! I'm bored. BORED.

I gotta pick Patrick from school soooooon. Like, now. I think I have to go again tomorrow. Haha. Boo.. Blah, blah, blah. Okay. Bye.

Counting down the days: 6

True justice.

"In your patience possess ye your souls."
-Luke 21:19

If you try to bring justice upon people who have done you wrong, you are closing the door for God to do it. Either you can do it God's way, or you can do it your way. If you tell yourself you're going to show them what you're made of, that attitude will prevent God from avenging you His way. God can bring true justice into your life, if you totally turn it over to Him.

Maybe you've been involved in a situation for months or even years, and now you're wondering, Is God ever going to bring about justice? Does he even care? You shouldn't give up. Keep doing the right thing. God is building character in you, and you are passing that test. Remember, the greater the struggle, the greater the reward. Trust God to bring justice in His timing, not yours.

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Haha. Woww.. Personally, I'd rather do it my way. If God's way of bringing about justice is having my mom realize what a dipshit she is, then I'd rather not have that. This isn't just proving to her that I can live my own life, it's proving to myself.

Counting down the days: 7.

Not cool.

I can't sleep! Rararar.

Counting down the days: 8.

Doing right when it hurts.

"Beloved, never avenge yourselves, but leave the way open for His wrath; for it is written, 'Vengeance is Mine, I will requite,' says the Lord."
-Romans 12:19

God has promised that if you will put your trust in Him to bring about the justice in your life, He will pay you back for all the unfair things that have happened to you. That means you don't have to go around trying to pay everybody back for the wrong things they have done to you. God is your vindicator. Let Him fight your battles for you.

When you truly understand that you don't have to fix everything that happens to you, you don't have to try to manipulate the situation or control the circumstances or people involved. When you leave it up to God to pay you back, you take the high road, respond in love, and watch what God will do. Remember, God always pays back abundantly.

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So I got this little book thing for my birthday, yeah? And it's titled Your Best Life Begins Each Morning: Devotions to start every day of the year. I actually really like it. Well, today's devotion is "Doing right when it hurts." I found today's to be very interesting. Haha.. What do you think?

Counting down the days: 9.

Three years, 10 months.

Calvin and I actually forgot this month. LOL.

We're more excited about the 17th. Haha. Booooo. Super excitingg. I'm like, really excited about spending our 4 years together.

Counting down the days: 10.

A week and a half.

It really is the only thing on my mind right now. I don't really want to do anything until then. Boo. BOO..

Counting down the days: 11.

Kengo Sushi.

Mmm.. I'm just killing time until Jen gets here. Haha. We're going to our favorite sushi place! YAYYY.

Foreals, though. We go there all the time. Yummy, yummy food.

Anyways, I woke up SUPER late this morning. Well, this afternoon. I got out of bed at two. Haha. Calvin called me at 10-ish this morning, though. That was fun. I hella knocked out afterwards.

I was kindof productive today. Kindof. Actually, no. Wait, yeah. I cleaned up the guest room a bit. YEAH. Good, good. I made more bracelets, too. Well, kindof. I started a couple, but I got lazy. Ahh, laziness. Today feels like a lazy day.

Oh man. I think Jen- Jennifer's here. LOL.

Sushi timeee~

Counting down the days: 12. *This is including today. Lmao.

Snickers and Reese's.

Today was pretty interesting. Haha.

Woke up to dogs barking this morning at like, 7:30-ish. Then I went back to sleep. Haha. THEN, woke up again at 9-ish. 'Cause Calvin called. Aww. Then he had to leave for work. This time, I couldn't really go back to sleep. Sara's neighbor was drilling stuff this morning and it was loud. Like, looooud. Then I went back to sleep. LOL. Woke up again at 11:20.. 12-ishhh.

Mm.. So I went out with TJ, Marcus, Patrick and Jett. Haha. We went to WingStop and I mooched off of their fries. LOL. Jett left for dinner with his Aunt, and the rest of us went to TJ's place. TJ's dogs kept licking my feet. Haha. Grody! OH. Dude, I saw a commercial for Snickers AND Reese's. Now I want them. Lmao.

After TJ's, we went back to Sara's house and I ate some more. Haha. I'm a fatty. They're all playing games right now and I'm on the phone with Calvin. He just got out of the bath. Hott. <3

Uhm.. Yeah. Not much to do now except talk on the phone! So I'm gonna go and do that. Haha.

Counting down the days: 13.

Bring it on.

One week out of three. Awesome.

Also, it's been a week since I've started birth control. So far, it's all gooodd. My boobs have definitely gotten bigger. LOL.. Eh, whatever.

So, just two more weeks until I leave. I'm pretty excited. Hell, I'm excited for the obstacles coming my way.

Okay, world. I'm ready. Give me your best shot.

Bracelets.

I made a whole bunch today. Haha. I made one that kindof looks like Calvin's Onitsuka Tigers. It looks pretty spiffy.

I'm thinking about just making a whole bun-OHH. (Bunoh. Lmao). I figured out how to make an adjustable knot. YEAHH.

Caffeine.

I've been craving a lot of coffee, for some reason.

Oh, that reminds me. Josh left for the Philippines today. He's going to be there until September. Boo! My coffee buddy. We didn't get that chance to go to Barista's one last time before we never see each other again. I'm sad now.

Mm.. Yeah, Josh and I go to Barista's regularly since we started talking again. Aww. I already miss those days. We just went there on Tuesday, too. Haha. Ah, well.. Good times, good times.