Love the way you lie..

I seriously, seriously do not like hearing "It's up to you." Hypocrisy at its best, I know. Still, though. If I can say this face to face without crying, I totally would. But you know once I start crying, I won't stop. And what I want to say will never get through.

You know I want to be with you all the time. The fact that you're going to class every day is already too much for me. So when I ask.. "Do you want me to go with you?" every time you leave for a session or for some other reason, I'm always hoping "Of course, baby."

Yeah, okay. Sometimes I say, "Nah, I don't really want to go." It's usually because you're just going to the grocery store and that you'll be back in half an hour. I still want to hear "I want you to go with me," though.. Ugh. I don't know.

Maybe it's the birth control or the fact that I haven't started my period yet, who knows. But I'm pretty upset right now.

Introduce yourself.

Hi, my name is Karen (Hi Kaaaaren) and I'm currently unemployed and not attending college. I have a terrible relationship with my parents and younger brother. I'm living with my boyfriend along with his parents, sister, brother and grandmother. I wake up at 9 on weekdays and take my boyfriend to the campus shuttle and go back to sleep as soon as I get home. Sometimes, I don't even take him to school; his brother does. By the time I'm actually awake, it'll already be afternoon and I leave to pick up my boyfriend from the shuttle stop. Afterwards, I'll eat with my boyfriend.. Then go back to sleep. At 9:30, my boyfriend wakes me up to take my birth control pill and I'll be up until 2 or 3 in the morning. And this repeats until the weekend, where my boyfriend and I both sleep in until late afternoon.

What a life, huh? It's days like these when I wish I had school..

But, it's time for a change. Today, I woke up at 9 and took Calvin to the campus shuttle. I came home and cleaned up the room a bit (Calvin and I slept upstairs on the sofa last night and the night before). I folded the blankets and set up the pillows and all that jazz. You know, I'm actually surprised that I'm still awake. Haha. Later, after I pick up Calvin, we're going to go walk Xiah since it's so nice out today. I kindof want this walking thing to be daily, but who knows. It's getting colder and it might rain later on this week. Ah, well. We'll see.

So what am I doing right now? Just sitting upstairs, letting Max sleep. Haha. I wonder if he suspects anything about last night. LOL. I won't go into detail, though. Shh.. Ho-hum~ I need to apply for Spring Semester soon. I'm just wondering about all my test scores and whatnot. Since I've applied to UMN for Fall Semester. Hmm..

Well, I'm gonna go and get ready to pick up my boyprendddd. He's meeting with a chick right now. To discuss things. At Starbucks. Chemistry.

Jealousy. Haha. Just kidding. I don't mind it. I just enjoy poking fun at him.