Shh. Don't tell.

It took me hella long to get out of bed this morning. Haha.

Pastor Art gave the message today. Noah like, destroyed the piece of paper I was using to take notes. Well, not really. But it was all crumpled up and stuff. Lmao. How cute!

Mm.. Pastor Art also spoke about marriage. I forgot why, though. Haha. You know, only one date comes to mind when I think about marriage or weddings and such. I'm definitely getting married on the 5th of October. Why I chose that date? S-e-c-r-e-t. You'll have to ask me if you're curious. You can probably guess why, though. Haha.

I just got off the phone with Calvin. Man, he's so sweet. He and I are going to do a puzzle together! One of those 1000 piece ones. Mmhmm. We're going to be on the floor, side by side and everything. Aww! Haha.

It takes us a bit longer to say goodbye now. Since we don't even say "goodbye" anymore. It's okay, though. I love it.

Boo. I really want to lay in bed with him.

Rolls.

I spent the day hanging out with Chiara. Haha.

So like, we just parked, yeahhh? And this one chick was getting out of the passenger side of her car. I said, "Swear, if you hit my car.." But, wait! There's more. My window was open. LOL..

But, yeah. Mall was alright. Kindof boring. I did a little shopping. Haha. Chiara and I hung around some of her friends. It was pretty cool, I guess. Not exactly the type of people I would hang out with.. But, hey. It was cool. They're those weird.. White, annoying skater things. Lmao.

After the mall, Chiara went with me to go job hunting. Maaan, no one is hiring. Haha. Oh, well.

She and I went to Raley's and bought stuff for Sushi. YAY. Suuuushi. I made hella rolls. 'Cause like, my mom saw me making them. And she was all, "Make some for church. Since it's a potluck." And I'm like, "Boo."

Mm. So, right now. I'm watching Calvin sleep. HOW CUTE. Rarar. Ivan keeps staring at me, but he won't wave. Haha. BOO. Max waves.

OH. So.. Max is so nice. Wanna know why? 'Cause he hella just covered Calvin with a blanket. AWW.. Cute, cute. What a nice cousin.

Calvin's so cute when he's sleeping. I would stare at him ALL night if I could. Oh man. I just want to hug him. Boo.

I'm sad now.

Watermelon.

Man, I'm craving. Hardcore.

Last night..

"..I tried, but I couldn't sleep.
Thoughts of you were in my head.
I was lonely and I needed you next to me.."

I woke up at like 3-ish.. And this song was playing. I haven't been able to sleep since then. Haha..

I've been thinking a lot lately. Mostly about the day Calvin and I are finally going to be together. I know, I'm a romantic. But I can't help myself. He and I had just started talking again about 6-ish months ago. And in a matter of days, I've come to love him all over again. I guess it's true. You know, what they say about one's first love.

Remember when I said 2009 wasn't a good year? Yeah, last year was the year when Calvin wasn't a part of my life. I've always felt that there was something missing. I need him. I know that now. He's my lover beyond comparison - my boyfriend. He's the one who fills my heart - my other half. He's the one I can confide in - my best friend.

I'm still unsure as to what true love is, though. Hmm.. A few words do come to mind when I think of the word, "love."

Commitment; Love is a choice.

Acceptance; Love looks past one's flaws.

Time; Love doesn't happen overnight.

I'm happy that I'm able to know Calvin before meeting him. I wouldn't have had it any other way. But as the months go by, the more anxious I grow. I've never been so impatient about anything before. I'm at the point where I just want to drop everything just to be with him.

You know, I just want to look into his eyes and say, "I love you." I want to feel his embrace; his touch. I want to kiss him on the lips; eyes closed with each other in mind. I want to be there when he needs me the most; holding each other, "I'm here." I want so much right now, but I can't have them yet. Thing is, I'm just glad that he's a part of my life. Even though he isn't physically with me, I can still go to him and he'll be there. I can't ask for anything more than that.

They say nobody's perfect. I don't believe that's true. I've fallen in love with someone who is everything I've ever wanted in a partner. He's perfect to me. He loves me for who I am, and I love him for who he is. There isn't a thing I would change about him.

I just want to tell the whole world:

"I love Calvin Woo.

Always and forever."

Sleepyface.

It was kindof sunny today. Until it got all foggy.

Not much happened, really. School was the same. I took Patrick to the DMV so he could FINALLY take his Learner's test. Guess what? He passed! YAYYY. Congratulations, buddyyy. Proud of ya.

While Patrick was taking his test, Sara and I went to Party City to see if they were hiring. Actually.. When we walked in, we forgot what we were doing. So we went to go play with the party favors. LOL. It was fun. I was playing with the bouncy balls and Sara was playing with this.. Stick thingy.. Yeah. Lmao.

After Party City, we went to go pick up Patrick. Theeeen, I took them home. Then, uh.. I went home to change my clothes. Yeahhh.

I left around 5:30 to go to class. Man, soo boring! Swear, the teacher reeeeally pisses me off. OH, OH. So.. This one chick was HELLA mugging. Like, foreals. Every time I turn around or something, she's staringg. Turns out she's the sister of this girl who I almost got into a fight with at the mall. After class, she came up to me. And did NOTHING. Woooow. Reeeeally?

I'm not going to fight her, though. I don't want to worry Calvin any more than I already have. He means the absolute world to me. I don't want to do anything unnecessary.

Well, I came home around 9:30-ish and stuff. Now I'm doing this. Haha. I was talking to Calvin, but he fell asleep. Aww. So cut- He just woke up. LOL. Aww!

He and I are saying goodnight now. He doesn't like to say goodbye anymore. It's so cute! Rarar. I just want to hug him.

Mm.. Well, I'm tired now. I usually have nothing to do after Calvin goes to sleep. Haha. Boo!

G'niiiight.

Startin' with the basics.

Babe told me that he wants to sing. HOW CUTE IS THAT?!

I'm totally going to try and like, teach him. Haha. We're going to make this work!

Challenge.

School was cool. Haha.

Bombed a quiz in Pre-Cal. Gross. Gotta study for the chapter test that's going to happen this Wednesday. Watched a video in Economics. That was kindof boring. I was texting Calvin the whole time. Lmao. He didn't have school today. Luckyy. Uhm! Spanish was alriiiight. Took a vocabulary test. I forgot to ask Mrs. K. if I could see the list of Spanish.. Artists and stuff. I forgot who my person is. LOL..

I had hella to do in the AP Office today. Since Mrs. Zimmerman was giving out Off-Campus passes, I had to watch the office. Ohhh man. I felt so important. Haha. Just kidding. I felt bad sending students to Support Room, though. In-school suspension, boringgg. OH. I know what I was doing wrong on the quiz we took in Chemistry. I DIDN'T CONVERT CELSIUS INTO KELVINS. Duhhh. I was wondering why since everything was set up correctly. I totally got this, man. We had a guest speaker in English. This guy from the Art Institutes. I hella want to try applying, but I heard tuition is brutal.

So, after school, I dropped Patrick, Sara and Therese home. Then, Jennifer and I went to my house so I can change clothes. Then we went to Mountain House! Mm.. Practice was tiri- I KNOW WHAT YOU'RE THINKING. Yes, I actually went this time. Good stuff, huh? We actually practiced, too. Hum. The introduction for the routine was cleaned up. Yay. Uhh. During the 10-minute break, I was teaching Christine how to 6-Step. I couldn't properly do it 'cause my hip was killing me. Haha. It still hurts. BOO.

I came home around 6-ish? And noooow, I'm doing this. Because I'm bored. Hah- OHH. SO, SO.. Check it out:

"OH MAN. Baby, baby~ When we have children, we're totally training them to Bboy. Then we should call out my brother's children."

Ohh man! Harvey's kids are going down~! Maybe. Haha.

Babe, we're totally making a dance studio in our home. Three kids, 'kayyy? <3