Love the way you lie..

I seriously, seriously do not like hearing "It's up to you." Hypocrisy at its best, I know. Still, though. If I can say this face to face without crying, I totally would. But you know once I start crying, I won't stop. And what I want to say will never get through.

You know I want to be with you all the time. The fact that you're going to class every day is already too much for me. So when I ask.. "Do you want me to go with you?" every time you leave for a session or for some other reason, I'm always hoping "Of course, baby."

Yeah, okay. Sometimes I say, "Nah, I don't really want to go." It's usually because you're just going to the grocery store and that you'll be back in half an hour. I still want to hear "I want you to go with me," though.. Ugh. I don't know.

Maybe it's the birth control or the fact that I haven't started my period yet, who knows. But I'm pretty upset right now.

Introduce yourself.

Hi, my name is Karen (Hi Kaaaaren) and I'm currently unemployed and not attending college. I have a terrible relationship with my parents and younger brother. I'm living with my boyfriend along with his parents, sister, brother and grandmother. I wake up at 9 on weekdays and take my boyfriend to the campus shuttle and go back to sleep as soon as I get home. Sometimes, I don't even take him to school; his brother does. By the time I'm actually awake, it'll already be afternoon and I leave to pick up my boyfriend from the shuttle stop. Afterwards, I'll eat with my boyfriend.. Then go back to sleep. At 9:30, my boyfriend wakes me up to take my birth control pill and I'll be up until 2 or 3 in the morning. And this repeats until the weekend, where my boyfriend and I both sleep in until late afternoon.

What a life, huh? It's days like these when I wish I had school..

But, it's time for a change. Today, I woke up at 9 and took Calvin to the campus shuttle. I came home and cleaned up the room a bit (Calvin and I slept upstairs on the sofa last night and the night before). I folded the blankets and set up the pillows and all that jazz. You know, I'm actually surprised that I'm still awake. Haha. Later, after I pick up Calvin, we're going to go walk Xiah since it's so nice out today. I kindof want this walking thing to be daily, but who knows. It's getting colder and it might rain later on this week. Ah, well. We'll see.

So what am I doing right now? Just sitting upstairs, letting Max sleep. Haha. I wonder if he suspects anything about last night. LOL. I won't go into detail, though. Shh.. Ho-hum~ I need to apply for Spring Semester soon. I'm just wondering about all my test scores and whatnot. Since I've applied to UMN for Fall Semester. Hmm..

Well, I'm gonna go and get ready to pick up my boyprendddd. He's meeting with a chick right now. To discuss things. At Starbucks. Chemistry.

Jealousy. Haha. Just kidding. I don't mind it. I just enjoy poking fun at him.

Oblivious.

So I just found out that one of my Followers on Blogger is a dear friend of mine. LOL. Great, huh? I didn't even notice until I read a few of her posts. I should chat with her on AIM sometime.

Anyways!

I'm watching Calvin and Max play Super Mario Galaxy 2. It's interesting. Mm.. You know, it's not that he completely ignores me when he's playing videogames, but he's totally oblivious to his surroundings. Haha. I mean, he responds when I talk to him, but I don't know how much of it actually gets through. Ah, but I love him. At least he doesn't ignore me, right? I think that's a good thing. Mm. Definitely a good thing.

Ah, man.

I've definitely been getting lazy with these posts. Well, kindof. Haha. I suppose it's more of.. I'd rather spend time with Calvin than on my laptop typing.

So why am I posting something now? Mm.. Calvin, Hien and Bunny left to join bro bro at some session and I was.. Tired? I don't know. I slept for hella days this morning. You know, I think it's because I don't want Calvin spending more than he's supposed to. Like.. If I go to the session, he'd be paying for me to kindof just stand there and watch. Yeah.. Also, I should finish up a few things I started. Productive, yes. Maybe. Kindof..

Mm.. So right now, I'm home with Jay. Haha. We're both filling out applications. IT'S SO BORING. Ahh. This one application I received from this one store wants me to introduce myself. I don't even know what to write. Lmao.

Oh, Calvin wants me to apply for Spring Semester. I'm down for it, just worried about finances and stuff. I mean, I'm not even a resident yet. Remember when I was waitlisted for the University? Yeah, my application was withdrawn 'cause I wasn't a resident. I'm not lying, either. The dude actually told me straight up. Bun'cha bull, huh?

Aha. So you know, I don't type these up all in one go. So like, I was typing this, filling out applications (online and paper), doing stuff on Facebook and playing Solitaire. LOL. Not exactly multi-tasking, but yeah. Haha. I can't stick to one thing for a long period of time. But, buuuut. I just finished filling out the applications I got last week. Yes, yes. Last week. YEAH.. Laziness to the max. You know me.

So, it's already 8:23. Calvin's been gone a while. I miss him. I really don't like being apart from him. Rarar. I wonder what it's going to be like once he starts school and I get a job. Seriously, thoughh. The wait is pretty brutal. Ah, gotta get used to this.

I'm like, sitting in the kitchen right now. I feel bad. I want to keep Jay company, but it's a bit humid downstairs. I'm not really diggin' it right now. Hah- He just came up and started calling me lame. The hell? Haha.

Oh man. So you know what I love about Blogger? It saves drafts. LOL. I just had to restart my laptop 'cause my iTunes didn't want to open up for me. It's almost 9 now. Interesting, huh? I don't remember when I started this, though. Hmm.. Eh, it's whateverr.

You know what iTunes reminds me of? Music surveys. Lmao! Calvin and I did used to do them for fun when we were killing time. It's like.. You answer questions and stuff based on what song pops up on your iTunes when you click next. On shuffle, of course. We got some pretty weird answers. LOL. Mine were so bad. Haha.

What's the first thing you think about in the morning?
Pushin' Drugs by Andrew W.K.

Haha. So badd.

This post is getting pretty long, huh? Yeah, I'm just trying to kill time until Calvin gets home. I still don't want to go downstairs. Haha. Kindof. I'm getting kindof hungry. Kindoff. Oh man. I think Jennifer is hom- Yeah, she's home. I can hear her. LOL. Shh.. Xiah looks so happy when she's home. It's kindof sad watching him stare out the window. Aww..

Right now, I'm watching Chinese commercials. They're pretty interesting. A lot of medicine and stuf- DUDE. I just saw a moon cake. I kindof want one now. The ones my Aunt makes are super bomb to the max, yo. Haha.

Oh, yeah. Calvin and I were gonna go to the State Fair with a couple friends today. Why we didn't go? Kindof because of money. Haha. I've never been, but from what I'm hearing, you'd be spending a lot on food and such. Who did go? Let's see.. Brent, Miriam, Max, Vanessa, Nolan, Michael and Jennifer. Brent seemed upset 'cause we didn't go. Haha.. Boo.

Num num. So, it's been a little more than a week since I've moved up here. It really doesn't feel like it. I feels like.. I never even left, you know? Hell, it feels like I've always been here. Oh man. I hear Xiah barking. Does that mean they're homeee? I hope so. I need to charge my laptop. LOL. Maybe. It has another twenty minutes on it. Whooop, they're home.

Recap.

Ohhhh man. It's definitely been a while. Haha. So, I'm gonna give you a quick update.

Sunday:
Went to San Francisco with Sara. That was fun. I went Gatsby happy, though. Haha. Oh, yeah. There was a festival thingy going on in Japantown. That was interesting. So many Japanese people in one place! I actually understood some of them. Man, too much anime when I was a kid. Shh..

Monday:
Judel, Jennifer, Sara and I were gonna go to Stockton to eat at a sushi buffet. That didn't happen. Haha. Instead, we went to Kengo. This day was all bad, though. So we were going to Kengo, yeah? And we totally forgot that it was closed until five, so we were like.. Oh man. What to do? Well, they all went with me to get my hair cut. Haha. And, uh.. Guess who we saw there? My mother. Great, yeah? Pshh. Not even. It was awkward as hell. Lmao. I don't think she noticed me, though. Maybe.

Tuesday:
My flight. It was.. Bleah. Haha. Crying children on both of my flights. I was like, dead tired once I landed in Minnesota. Mm.. Seeing Calvin after so long was amazing. I missed him so much. I seriously forgot about everything when I saw him. Aww. Haha.

Wednesday:
Went to a session at the University. That was fun. I have so many bug bites, though. Gross.

Thursday:
Max's birthday! We went to Akita. Haha. That was yummy, but I ate so much. I was dying from cramps and fighting a food coma. Max is like, old now! Haha.

Friday:
Went to another session at St. Thomas. I got even more bug bites from walking to the parking lot and back. Did that like, 4 times. Haha.

Today:
Didn't wake up until 5 in the evening. LOL. All bad. I was starving, so we went to go SmashBurger with Calvin and Max. And thenn, bro bro wanted to go to this one bakery with cupcakes and stuff. It's actually pretty cute in there. The cupcakes are good and I love the macaroons. Haha. The frosting on the cupcakes is a bit too sweet for me, though. I made Calvin eat it. Lmao. I'm watching them place Marvel vs. Capcom right now. They're so competitive. It's getting pretty hot, so I might get off my laptop now.

You know what I noticed? I wrote more about last week than the last few days. LOL. I wonder what that means..

Booked.

I didn't do anything today. Haha.

Well, I did my laundry. I think I'm gonna finish up packing tomorrow. Yup, yup. Sounds like a plan.

I even watched the Food Network. I gotta say, that's my favorite channel. Yeahh.

Oh, yeah. Tomorrow, Sara and I are finally going to San Francisco. Lmao. We've been putting it off for hella days. Sara's mom has something planned for us in the evening, too. Hmm.. I'm pretty curious. She kept asking if I have tomorrow night free. Haha.

Mm.. I also have a sushi date with Judel, Jennifer and Sara in Stockton. Yummyy. All you can eat for 11 dollars. Pretty hardcore. You know, if someone ever asks me "What's your favorite food?" My answer would probably be sushi. No doubt about it. I was always, always trying to figure it out. Haha. I finally know now since I'm always eating it.

So my next two days are pretty full. It should keep me occupied until my flight. We're leaving for the airport at two in the morning Tuesday. I'll probably be the one driving again. One last adventure time in California, I bet. I wanna go to that donut place again. I never got to eat mine. And I paid for it! Boooo.

Ah, man. Foreals, though. This wait is nothing compared to the three months I was waiting to finally meet Calvin. LOL. It was so hard trying to keep it from him. Even when I got there, I had to wait two more days! Mann, the wait was killer. Hien was being a douche by asking me if I wanted to meet up with Calvin the day before their graduation. Haha.

Anyways, I was reading when I noticed that I didn't post anything today. I think I'll get back to that book now. Peace outSIDE.

Counting down the days: 3.

Is your name Medusa?

Because when I look into your eyes, I get rock hard.

Haha. I'd totally use this if I was a dude.

Counting down the days: 4.