Update.

Currently, I'm at Tea Garden.. Waiting for Calvin to finish his Chemistry Final. I forgot my book in the car and I'm too lazy to go back and get it (I hope I don't get a ticket for violation.. I parked at another store's lot. LOL). So I'm using this time to update you guys on my.. Wonderful life. Ha.. Who reads this, though? Makes me wonder.

I'm so bored. Haha. It's snowing today. Kindof blizzard..y? Only 'cause there's some wind going on. Other than that, driving home shouldn't be a problem. I already saw a few cars skidding down the road, though. Ehh.

Anyways! So Christmas is later this week. How awesome is that? Well, maybe not that awesome. It'll be the first time I'll be spending Christmas without my family. My church's Christmas program was this past weekend-I wonder how that went. I'll be spending Christmas at Calvin's relative's house..? I think. It's Calvin's dad's sister's place. Most likely. Haha. Supposedly, Calvin's cousin, Derek, has some pretty sexy cars. I gotta check that out.

Speaking of Christmas, have you done your Christmas shopping yet? I tried, but only ended up buying crud for myself. Haha. Talk about selfish, hu- Oh, yum. Some chick just brought in some Raising Cane's (this super bomb chicken place) and I can smell it. Ahh. I'm starvingg. Bleh.

So while I sit here, drinking an Almond Tea Latte, smelling other peoples' food (lmao), and waiting for Calvin to finish, I'm also reading a couple friends' Tumblr blogs (speaking of Tumblr, I may give in and make one). Jen seems to be having some problems with Pre-Cal and family stuff. On Facebook, Judel had just gotten out of a relationship. Again. Which isn't necessarily a bad thing, but it seems foreals this time. Okay, you're probably thinking, "Dudeeee. Can you say stalker status?" Not even, yo. It's not my fault that it's on Facebook for everyone to see. As for Tumblr, I like to see the different layouts people have (probably the only downside of Tumblr. Yeah, it's unique. But I like it simple). And I'd rather look at a friend's Tumblr than some stranger's.

You know, ever since I moved to Minnesota, it feels like I've gotten out of touch with my friends. The only people I've spoken to since I left were Sara and Chiara. This is excluding random posts of "I miss you" on Facebook. It's not that I don't like those, but I do like a good conversation.

I suppose it's fault on my part, as well. It's not that I've been busy. It's somehow difficult to message someone and ask how life is going, you know? I do prefer physical conta- Uh.. Face to face conversations. Yeah. I miss having all those talks and hanging out kindof thing. I mean, it's not that I don't have friends here. Haha. I've just been busy with work and whatnot. And the only people I'd like to hang out with are those in the Bboy Club. They're hilarious. Calvin's friends.. Not that I don't like them, they just seem.. Emotionally unstable. You know, sudden depression from an almost insulting joke or constant "that's what she said" jokes (that they set themselves up for).

I do like to hang out with them, though. They're just a tad bit annoying sometimes. And the things they want to do is rather spendy. Plus.. Harvey, Calvin, or I would be the ones driving them. Yeah, I know. The fuck? Give me gas money, then I'll drive you.

Mm.. It's been a while since I've posted something this long, huh? Hopefully, I can continue with this. Lately, I've been so.. Lazy. Wake up early, go to work, come home, sleep, eat, sleep. And basically do it all over again.

I do go on the internet, though. But I'd much rather cuddle up next to Calvin while he uses my laptop. Haha. But, yeah. He's done with his Chemistry Final and is heading over to Tea Garden. I'm gonna ask him if we can go to Raising Cane's after Dilan is done with his Final.

Ah, man. I'm starving. The two people next to me downed their food like it was noooothing. The chick keeps staring at me, too. I bet she thinks that I'm working on homework or something. Alrighty, I'm about don- Calvin's here. Haha. He's gonna want to use the laptop now.

'KAY, BYE.

Tumblr.

I started thinking about making one, but I'm not sure. Haha. I like the simplicity of Blogger. Tumblr and Blogger are like.. Facebook and MySpace.

Who knows, I might change it up. Probably switch to Tumblr. Haha. Not because no one uses Blogger anymore, change is good sometimes, yeah?

And.. I'm being pressured into making one. LOL..

Ughh.

I'm seriously lagging on this. Haha. Mm.. I gotta start waking up early now. I can't even wake up at 9:30. BOOO.

Next semester, Calvin has classes at like, 8:00? I dunno. Cruddd.

For some reason..

I'm really annoyed.

Christmas list.

• Ring (diamond, silver, pretty).
  
• Bag (black, over the shoulder, semi-big).
  
• Digital camera (Canon).
  

All done! Haha.

Tick tock.

Went to practice with Calvin today. We were suuuper late to his.. poster/flier meeting. Haha. Oops. Half of it was my fault. You can guess why. LOL..

Finally!

LeeAnn Chin hired a new guy. Haha. He picked up pretty fast today. That was good. After work today, I took Estela home. Well, I picked up Calvin from the St. Paul campus, then took her home. Haha.

Man, she lives pretty far away from our work place. I feel kindof bad for her. She has to take two buses in order to get to work. Boo..

Anyways, after Calvin and I took Estela home, we went to Tou's house! Man, that was fun. Tou's nephew is adorable. Haha. I kindof played Poker. Kindof. I still don't understand it. So I was partnered with Calvin. That was interesting. Hien kept losing until the end. LOL. I think he won the everything during the last hand? I dunno. I wasn't paying attention. After that, Calvin and I took a lightweight nap while Max and Tou play FIFA. I kindof woke up when Alex and Tou were playing Call of Duty; Zombies! RARARARR.

Mm.. I'm pretty tired. Doing stuff after work is brutal on my body. Haha. I can't wait until Saturday.. I gotta wake up early, THEN go to a jam with Calvin and bro bro. Bleahh.

Annoyed.

I hate it when couples break up, get back together, break up, and then get back together.

OVER AND OVER AGAIN. Annoying as fuck, really. Especially if you break up, then get back together the same fucking day! What's the point of breaking up, then? Was the fight you two got into so serious that you actually had to break up with each other?

I mean, if it was really that serious, then you two wouldn't have gotten back together the same day in the first place.

Really, now. Obviously, you two aren't compatible with each other if you two keep breaking up.

Cheescake truffles!

I made them! And they're pretty darn good. Haha.

My Nutella cookies sucked butt, though. Booooo.

SNOW.

I threw a snowball at Calvin, but missed and hit his dad instead. LOL.

So, my first snow experience in Minnesota and it was a semi-storm. Haha. Boooo. But, it was fun! Calvin was super lucky today. 'Cause like, you know. We were debating on whether to go out and eat this morning. We ended up going to Raising Cane's. (There's something about their chicken that's pretty addicting. Or maybe it's the sauce). Haha. BUT, YEAH. So, we left, huh? Then, theeen. Calvin takes me to work and goes home, right?

Oh mann. One of the branches on Calvin's tree FALLS on where our car was parked. Lucky, huh? Haha. Good stuff, gooooood stuff. Anyways, I'm cold and tired. And I feel gross. GOODNIGHT.

Pretty much true.

I know Calvin does that. Haha. Except with Halo and Marvel vs. Capcom.

Ahh!

I missed a few days. Haha.

Oh, well. Just goes to show that I can't commit to something. Boooooo!

Breakin' 101.

Calvin, bro bro, Max and I are making an outline for their upcoming jam this Spring. So far, so good. Kindof. Haha. The title of the jam is going to be "Breakin' 101: Introduction to Battle." Andd the theme is going to be academics.

Oh, yeah. Calvin might be president of the club next year. Sounds like fun, huh? I think it'd be a good opportunity for him. Yup, yup! Good stuff.

We went to Tea Garden and Raising Cane's. That was yummy. I'm super full right now, though. Haha.

Lazy day.

Sundays are truly my lazy days. But we're going to the restaurant today. Haha.

What day is your lazy day?

Burlesque.

For the longest time, I thought this movie was titled "Cher." LOL..

4 years, 1 month.

Awesome, huh? Thank God I have the day off today.

Strange.

My posts haven't been.. Well, posting. Okay, they have been. But days after the post..? If that makes sense. Haha.

Is it just me?

Cheesecake.

So, I've been wanting to make cheesecake truffles. No bake cheesecake truffles, whaaa?

Alright, imagine biting into a chocolate truffle. But instead of that creamy chocolate center, there's that taste of cheesecake. But wait, there's more! Not just the cheesecake, but the crust as well. And pistachio?! Yes, yes. Pistachio.

I plan on making some mini citrus cheesecake coated with crushed pistachios. I don't know about you, but I think that sounds delicious. After baking them, I'm gonna roll 'em up and dip them in chocolate.

Mm..

I can't sleep.

I don't know why. Boooo.

Oh, yeah. And lately, my dreams are starting to become in sync with the Family Guy episodes Calvin and I have been playing nonstop. Haha. Yeah, I have like all of the episodes from Season 3 to Season 8. They're all in one playlist. Fun stuff, huh?

For some reason, it's a bit easier for me to sleep when something is playing on the TV.

Double shift.

Was. Not. Fun. At. All.

I'm so tired! Yeah, okay. At my old job, I worked 8 hours a day and all that jazz. But that was because I was the only employee and I was able to take a rest.

But, nooooo. At Leeann Chin, that was brutal. Alright, so I worked from 11:30 to 3. That was okay. I was late. Haha. But, wait! What's this? Noelle doesn't want to show up for her shift? Ugh. My managers wanted me to work THROUGH until closing. I was thinking, "Hell no. I'm tired. AT LEAST, let me go home for a bit first." So I lied. I told them I had already made plans.. They still wanted me to come in. BLEAH.

So I went back at 6 and closed. By myself. Zenaido was busy doing manager stuff, so I had to close the front. I'm so tired..

I have to work tomorrow, too. Fuck my life.

Happy Halloween!

BOO!

Did I scare ya? Probably not. Haha. I'm just trying to get through this week with sucky humor. Work today was alright. So many kids walked in. Haha. It was adorable; all dressed up and whatnot. I handed them chocolate fortune cookies. Yummers.

Ohh. There was this one chick. Suuuuper dressed up and her hair was hardcore. To the max. She looked.. Regal? Renaissance-like? Either way, she looked cool.

Anyways, I'm about to knock out. Sleepy time for meeee.

I work today.

Yepp. Not gonna lie, though. Leeann Chin expects wayyyyy too much of their employees. I'm so tired.

I work tomorrow, Monday, Tuesday, Thursday and this upcoming Saturday. Ugh. It's gonna be a long week. Only two days off? Not enough for me. Haha. BOOOOO. I'll definitely be sleeping those two days.

Milk shake.

Pictures.

I know, I've been posting a lot of them lately. Haha. There isn't much to talk about, though. I do the same things every single day. I hope to do something a bit more exciting sometime soon.

Well, I went to work today. It was a bit tiring, but it went by rather quick. Probably because I was actually able to help out customers. Even though I was a tad bit slow. Haha. I'll do better on Saturday! I'm extremely tired right now, so I might go to sleep. Maybee.

Oh, yeah.

Happy birthday, mother.

Welsh Corgi.

They're so cute when they're fat and stubby!

Work.

Was totally brutal. I bet my coworkers were indirectly bullying me. Haha. They made me do all of the grunt work today. Ah, man. So tired. I might knock out soon.

G'noight.

Baking blogs.

I've been reading up on a lot of them lately. Haha. Especially this one blog, Sugar Plum. You should check it out! She has some pretty yummy looking recipes and stuff.

Yeah, that's all for today.

BYE.

Shopping.

I am really not a fan of it. Haha. In all honesty, I enjoy window shopping; browsing. Not exactly spending money on something I need, but something I want. Today, we (Calvin, Max, Jay and I) went to the Mall of America. Man, I always get SOOO tired walking around.

Calvin and I tried looking for some clothes for my new workplace. Ugh. It was terrible. I saw so many things I wanted to buy instead. Haha. Mm.. Anyways, yeah. Maybe we'll go to Rosedale tomorrow after I pick up Calvin from school.

Ho-hum~ Well, I don't really know what I should talk about now. I'm kindof distracted by Calvin and Max. They're playing Halo. Haha. Apparently, they're zombies, as well. Interesting stuuuuuuff.

AWW.

Super Scribblenauts.

The. Most. Addicting. Game. Ever.

First day of work (kindof).

It was.. interesting.

One word and one word only; Paperwork. "Alrighty. Print your name here, initial here, sign here, and date." Cool first day, huh? Haha. It was alright, actually. Turned out that there was a mix up with a couple of the employees' schedules and too many people showed up today. So the manager decided to do the paperwork today and have the training next week.

I work Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday next week. Yayy.

Calvin's working on his Physics homework and just laying in bed. We came back from the movie theater not too long ago. Mm.. We watched The Social Network. It was alright. Not a movie I would watch again. To be honest, I didn't really want to go. Haha. I only went because Jay is leaving for the Navy next week.. So, yeah.

Ah, man. I'm kindof hungry. I think I might go grab some cereal and keep Calvin company. Well, kindof. I don't really want to bother him since he has a lot to do tonight. But, heyy. I'm in the room. Good enough, right?

Right.

Lucky.

So, guess what? I got the job AND my license. How super bomb is that?!

All I need.. Well, would like to get, is acceptance into the University. One more time, fingers crossed.

I've made up my mind.

I will now post something EVERY day.

What? Every day? Impossible!

Yes, you heard me. Well, read it. I will post.. Something. Hohohohohoo!

Shall I update you, the reader, about my life? Boring, I know. But I have nothing else to do at the moment. To start off, I finally was called back for an interview. Exciting, yes? Yes. I was interviewed at a place called Leeann Chin. It wasn't thaaaat bad. I'm not a fan of working at a place with food, though. Especially Chinese food. Ah, well. Whatever. A job is a job, yeah? Hopefully they call me back this week.

Currently, I'm waiting for Calvin to finish his lab. We're going to Maplewood Mall later. Calvin's been wanting to eat at Charley's Steakery. Or uh.. Charley's Grilled Subs? I dunno. The name is different here in Minnesota. Haha. Mm. And I want to go to H&M and see if there is anything interesting to purchase.

Oh? How's my new life here? I love it. I really do. It's a bit difficult now that I've been here so long and haven't really progressed financially. But, hey! Fingers crossed for that job, right? I'm still iffy as to what to do about college, as well. I mean, I've applied and all that. I just don't know what to do if I'm actually accepted. Mm.. I gotta talk to an adviser sometime. Oh man. So, I just looked at the Application Tracker for the University. As of October 18th, my application is being carefully considered. Hmm.. Cross your fingers again for this one!

Lately, I've been playing A LOT of Sudoku. I don't know why. Haha. I'm actually playing right now. I think it's the new Solitaire. Since Calvin has been doing a lot of homework and game playing.

OH, YEAH. I tried to renew my license. It didn't go very well. Haha. I got a 76% winging it, though. 4 more percent and I could've gotten my license! Faaaaail. Rarar. We're going again this Thursday. Cross your fingers one more time for this one. Haha. I think I got it. I've been taking a lot of those online permit tests. The only thing I need to really look into are the questions with numbers. Haha.

Anyways, time to pick up Calvin! Yayy.

Love the way you lie..

I seriously, seriously do not like hearing "It's up to you." Hypocrisy at its best, I know. Still, though. If I can say this face to face without crying, I totally would. But you know once I start crying, I won't stop. And what I want to say will never get through.

You know I want to be with you all the time. The fact that you're going to class every day is already too much for me. So when I ask.. "Do you want me to go with you?" every time you leave for a session or for some other reason, I'm always hoping "Of course, baby."

Yeah, okay. Sometimes I say, "Nah, I don't really want to go." It's usually because you're just going to the grocery store and that you'll be back in half an hour. I still want to hear "I want you to go with me," though.. Ugh. I don't know.

Maybe it's the birth control or the fact that I haven't started my period yet, who knows. But I'm pretty upset right now.

Introduce yourself.

Hi, my name is Karen (Hi Kaaaaren) and I'm currently unemployed and not attending college. I have a terrible relationship with my parents and younger brother. I'm living with my boyfriend along with his parents, sister, brother and grandmother. I wake up at 9 on weekdays and take my boyfriend to the campus shuttle and go back to sleep as soon as I get home. Sometimes, I don't even take him to school; his brother does. By the time I'm actually awake, it'll already be afternoon and I leave to pick up my boyfriend from the shuttle stop. Afterwards, I'll eat with my boyfriend.. Then go back to sleep. At 9:30, my boyfriend wakes me up to take my birth control pill and I'll be up until 2 or 3 in the morning. And this repeats until the weekend, where my boyfriend and I both sleep in until late afternoon.

What a life, huh? It's days like these when I wish I had school..

But, it's time for a change. Today, I woke up at 9 and took Calvin to the campus shuttle. I came home and cleaned up the room a bit (Calvin and I slept upstairs on the sofa last night and the night before). I folded the blankets and set up the pillows and all that jazz. You know, I'm actually surprised that I'm still awake. Haha. Later, after I pick up Calvin, we're going to go walk Xiah since it's so nice out today. I kindof want this walking thing to be daily, but who knows. It's getting colder and it might rain later on this week. Ah, well. We'll see.

So what am I doing right now? Just sitting upstairs, letting Max sleep. Haha. I wonder if he suspects anything about last night. LOL. I won't go into detail, though. Shh.. Ho-hum~ I need to apply for Spring Semester soon. I'm just wondering about all my test scores and whatnot. Since I've applied to UMN for Fall Semester. Hmm..

Well, I'm gonna go and get ready to pick up my boyprendddd. He's meeting with a chick right now. To discuss things. At Starbucks. Chemistry.

Jealousy. Haha. Just kidding. I don't mind it. I just enjoy poking fun at him.

Oblivious.

So I just found out that one of my Followers on Blogger is a dear friend of mine. LOL. Great, huh? I didn't even notice until I read a few of her posts. I should chat with her on AIM sometime.

Anyways!

I'm watching Calvin and Max play Super Mario Galaxy 2. It's interesting. Mm.. You know, it's not that he completely ignores me when he's playing videogames, but he's totally oblivious to his surroundings. Haha. I mean, he responds when I talk to him, but I don't know how much of it actually gets through. Ah, but I love him. At least he doesn't ignore me, right? I think that's a good thing. Mm. Definitely a good thing.

Ah, man.

I've definitely been getting lazy with these posts. Well, kindof. Haha. I suppose it's more of.. I'd rather spend time with Calvin than on my laptop typing.

So why am I posting something now? Mm.. Calvin, Hien and Bunny left to join bro bro at some session and I was.. Tired? I don't know. I slept for hella days this morning. You know, I think it's because I don't want Calvin spending more than he's supposed to. Like.. If I go to the session, he'd be paying for me to kindof just stand there and watch. Yeah.. Also, I should finish up a few things I started. Productive, yes. Maybe. Kindof..

Mm.. So right now, I'm home with Jay. Haha. We're both filling out applications. IT'S SO BORING. Ahh. This one application I received from this one store wants me to introduce myself. I don't even know what to write. Lmao.

Oh, Calvin wants me to apply for Spring Semester. I'm down for it, just worried about finances and stuff. I mean, I'm not even a resident yet. Remember when I was waitlisted for the University? Yeah, my application was withdrawn 'cause I wasn't a resident. I'm not lying, either. The dude actually told me straight up. Bun'cha bull, huh?

Aha. So you know, I don't type these up all in one go. So like, I was typing this, filling out applications (online and paper), doing stuff on Facebook and playing Solitaire. LOL. Not exactly multi-tasking, but yeah. Haha. I can't stick to one thing for a long period of time. But, buuuut. I just finished filling out the applications I got last week. Yes, yes. Last week. YEAH.. Laziness to the max. You know me.

So, it's already 8:23. Calvin's been gone a while. I miss him. I really don't like being apart from him. Rarar. I wonder what it's going to be like once he starts school and I get a job. Seriously, thoughh. The wait is pretty brutal. Ah, gotta get used to this.

I'm like, sitting in the kitchen right now. I feel bad. I want to keep Jay company, but it's a bit humid downstairs. I'm not really diggin' it right now. Hah- He just came up and started calling me lame. The hell? Haha.

Oh man. So you know what I love about Blogger? It saves drafts. LOL. I just had to restart my laptop 'cause my iTunes didn't want to open up for me. It's almost 9 now. Interesting, huh? I don't remember when I started this, though. Hmm.. Eh, it's whateverr.

You know what iTunes reminds me of? Music surveys. Lmao! Calvin and I did used to do them for fun when we were killing time. It's like.. You answer questions and stuff based on what song pops up on your iTunes when you click next. On shuffle, of course. We got some pretty weird answers. LOL. Mine were so bad. Haha.

What's the first thing you think about in the morning?
Pushin' Drugs by Andrew W.K.

Haha. So badd.

This post is getting pretty long, huh? Yeah, I'm just trying to kill time until Calvin gets home. I still don't want to go downstairs. Haha. Kindof. I'm getting kindof hungry. Kindoff. Oh man. I think Jennifer is hom- Yeah, she's home. I can hear her. LOL. Shh.. Xiah looks so happy when she's home. It's kindof sad watching him stare out the window. Aww..

Right now, I'm watching Chinese commercials. They're pretty interesting. A lot of medicine and stuf- DUDE. I just saw a moon cake. I kindof want one now. The ones my Aunt makes are super bomb to the max, yo. Haha.

Oh, yeah. Calvin and I were gonna go to the State Fair with a couple friends today. Why we didn't go? Kindof because of money. Haha. I've never been, but from what I'm hearing, you'd be spending a lot on food and such. Who did go? Let's see.. Brent, Miriam, Max, Vanessa, Nolan, Michael and Jennifer. Brent seemed upset 'cause we didn't go. Haha.. Boo.

Num num. So, it's been a little more than a week since I've moved up here. It really doesn't feel like it. I feels like.. I never even left, you know? Hell, it feels like I've always been here. Oh man. I hear Xiah barking. Does that mean they're homeee? I hope so. I need to charge my laptop. LOL. Maybe. It has another twenty minutes on it. Whooop, they're home.

Recap.

Ohhhh man. It's definitely been a while. Haha. So, I'm gonna give you a quick update.

Sunday:
Went to San Francisco with Sara. That was fun. I went Gatsby happy, though. Haha. Oh, yeah. There was a festival thingy going on in Japantown. That was interesting. So many Japanese people in one place! I actually understood some of them. Man, too much anime when I was a kid. Shh..

Monday:
Judel, Jennifer, Sara and I were gonna go to Stockton to eat at a sushi buffet. That didn't happen. Haha. Instead, we went to Kengo. This day was all bad, though. So we were going to Kengo, yeah? And we totally forgot that it was closed until five, so we were like.. Oh man. What to do? Well, they all went with me to get my hair cut. Haha. And, uh.. Guess who we saw there? My mother. Great, yeah? Pshh. Not even. It was awkward as hell. Lmao. I don't think she noticed me, though. Maybe.

Tuesday:
My flight. It was.. Bleah. Haha. Crying children on both of my flights. I was like, dead tired once I landed in Minnesota. Mm.. Seeing Calvin after so long was amazing. I missed him so much. I seriously forgot about everything when I saw him. Aww. Haha.

Wednesday:
Went to a session at the University. That was fun. I have so many bug bites, though. Gross.

Thursday:
Max's birthday! We went to Akita. Haha. That was yummy, but I ate so much. I was dying from cramps and fighting a food coma. Max is like, old now! Haha.

Friday:
Went to another session at St. Thomas. I got even more bug bites from walking to the parking lot and back. Did that like, 4 times. Haha.

Today:
Didn't wake up until 5 in the evening. LOL. All bad. I was starving, so we went to go SmashBurger with Calvin and Max. And thenn, bro bro wanted to go to this one bakery with cupcakes and stuff. It's actually pretty cute in there. The cupcakes are good and I love the macaroons. Haha. The frosting on the cupcakes is a bit too sweet for me, though. I made Calvin eat it. Lmao. I'm watching them place Marvel vs. Capcom right now. They're so competitive. It's getting pretty hot, so I might get off my laptop now.

You know what I noticed? I wrote more about last week than the last few days. LOL. I wonder what that means..

Booked.

I didn't do anything today. Haha.

Well, I did my laundry. I think I'm gonna finish up packing tomorrow. Yup, yup. Sounds like a plan.

I even watched the Food Network. I gotta say, that's my favorite channel. Yeahh.

Oh, yeah. Tomorrow, Sara and I are finally going to San Francisco. Lmao. We've been putting it off for hella days. Sara's mom has something planned for us in the evening, too. Hmm.. I'm pretty curious. She kept asking if I have tomorrow night free. Haha.

Mm.. I also have a sushi date with Judel, Jennifer and Sara in Stockton. Yummyy. All you can eat for 11 dollars. Pretty hardcore. You know, if someone ever asks me "What's your favorite food?" My answer would probably be sushi. No doubt about it. I was always, always trying to figure it out. Haha. I finally know now since I'm always eating it.

So my next two days are pretty full. It should keep me occupied until my flight. We're leaving for the airport at two in the morning Tuesday. I'll probably be the one driving again. One last adventure time in California, I bet. I wanna go to that donut place again. I never got to eat mine. And I paid for it! Boooo.

Ah, man. Foreals, though. This wait is nothing compared to the three months I was waiting to finally meet Calvin. LOL. It was so hard trying to keep it from him. Even when I got there, I had to wait two more days! Mann, the wait was killer. Hien was being a douche by asking me if I wanted to meet up with Calvin the day before their graduation. Haha.

Anyways, I was reading when I noticed that I didn't post anything today. I think I'll get back to that book now. Peace outSIDE.

Counting down the days: 3.

Is your name Medusa?

Because when I look into your eyes, I get rock hard.

Haha. I'd totally use this if I was a dude.

Counting down the days: 4.

Mi Corazón.

I love you so much. In just five short days, I get to spend every day with you. I can't wait, baby. I know I will be leaving a lot behind, but it will all be worth it once we're together. I told you, yeah? I'm willing to give up everything just to be with you. I don't regret any of it, baby. I never will. Being with you is all I want and will ever need. I've been so lost with you, baby. And now that I finally met you, I know I definitely cannot live without you. I need you in my life, Calvin.

I really want to be with you right now, love. I can't wait to do every thing with you again. It feels like it's been years since we've been together. I miss you. I need you. I love you. Always and forever.

Counting down the days: 5.

Et31b ty@$y24.

God fucking shit! I'm bored. BORED.

I gotta pick Patrick from school soooooon. Like, now. I think I have to go again tomorrow. Haha. Boo.. Blah, blah, blah. Okay. Bye.

Counting down the days: 6

True justice.

"In your patience possess ye your souls."
-Luke 21:19

If you try to bring justice upon people who have done you wrong, you are closing the door for God to do it. Either you can do it God's way, or you can do it your way. If you tell yourself you're going to show them what you're made of, that attitude will prevent God from avenging you His way. God can bring true justice into your life, if you totally turn it over to Him.

Maybe you've been involved in a situation for months or even years, and now you're wondering, Is God ever going to bring about justice? Does he even care? You shouldn't give up. Keep doing the right thing. God is building character in you, and you are passing that test. Remember, the greater the struggle, the greater the reward. Trust God to bring justice in His timing, not yours.

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Haha. Woww.. Personally, I'd rather do it my way. If God's way of bringing about justice is having my mom realize what a dipshit she is, then I'd rather not have that. This isn't just proving to her that I can live my own life, it's proving to myself.

Counting down the days: 7.

Not cool.

I can't sleep! Rararar.

Counting down the days: 8.

Doing right when it hurts.

"Beloved, never avenge yourselves, but leave the way open for His wrath; for it is written, 'Vengeance is Mine, I will requite,' says the Lord."
-Romans 12:19

God has promised that if you will put your trust in Him to bring about the justice in your life, He will pay you back for all the unfair things that have happened to you. That means you don't have to go around trying to pay everybody back for the wrong things they have done to you. God is your vindicator. Let Him fight your battles for you.

When you truly understand that you don't have to fix everything that happens to you, you don't have to try to manipulate the situation or control the circumstances or people involved. When you leave it up to God to pay you back, you take the high road, respond in love, and watch what God will do. Remember, God always pays back abundantly.

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So I got this little book thing for my birthday, yeah? And it's titled Your Best Life Begins Each Morning: Devotions to start every day of the year. I actually really like it. Well, today's devotion is "Doing right when it hurts." I found today's to be very interesting. Haha.. What do you think?

Counting down the days: 9.

Three years, 10 months.

Calvin and I actually forgot this month. LOL.

We're more excited about the 17th. Haha. Booooo. Super excitingg. I'm like, really excited about spending our 4 years together.

Counting down the days: 10.

A week and a half.

It really is the only thing on my mind right now. I don't really want to do anything until then. Boo. BOO..

Counting down the days: 11.

Kengo Sushi.

Mmm.. I'm just killing time until Jen gets here. Haha. We're going to our favorite sushi place! YAYYY.

Foreals, though. We go there all the time. Yummy, yummy food.

Anyways, I woke up SUPER late this morning. Well, this afternoon. I got out of bed at two. Haha. Calvin called me at 10-ish this morning, though. That was fun. I hella knocked out afterwards.

I was kindof productive today. Kindof. Actually, no. Wait, yeah. I cleaned up the guest room a bit. YEAH. Good, good. I made more bracelets, too. Well, kindof. I started a couple, but I got lazy. Ahh, laziness. Today feels like a lazy day.

Oh man. I think Jen- Jennifer's here. LOL.

Sushi timeee~

Counting down the days: 12. *This is including today. Lmao.

Snickers and Reese's.

Today was pretty interesting. Haha.

Woke up to dogs barking this morning at like, 7:30-ish. Then I went back to sleep. Haha. THEN, woke up again at 9-ish. 'Cause Calvin called. Aww. Then he had to leave for work. This time, I couldn't really go back to sleep. Sara's neighbor was drilling stuff this morning and it was loud. Like, looooud. Then I went back to sleep. LOL. Woke up again at 11:20.. 12-ishhh.

Mm.. So I went out with TJ, Marcus, Patrick and Jett. Haha. We went to WingStop and I mooched off of their fries. LOL. Jett left for dinner with his Aunt, and the rest of us went to TJ's place. TJ's dogs kept licking my feet. Haha. Grody! OH. Dude, I saw a commercial for Snickers AND Reese's. Now I want them. Lmao.

After TJ's, we went back to Sara's house and I ate some more. Haha. I'm a fatty. They're all playing games right now and I'm on the phone with Calvin. He just got out of the bath. Hott. <3

Uhm.. Yeah. Not much to do now except talk on the phone! So I'm gonna go and do that. Haha.

Counting down the days: 13.

Bring it on.

One week out of three. Awesome.

Also, it's been a week since I've started birth control. So far, it's all gooodd. My boobs have definitely gotten bigger. LOL.. Eh, whatever.

So, just two more weeks until I leave. I'm pretty excited. Hell, I'm excited for the obstacles coming my way.

Okay, world. I'm ready. Give me your best shot.

Bracelets.

I made a whole bunch today. Haha. I made one that kindof looks like Calvin's Onitsuka Tigers. It looks pretty spiffy.

I'm thinking about just making a whole bun-OHH. (Bunoh. Lmao). I figured out how to make an adjustable knot. YEAHH.

Caffeine.

I've been craving a lot of coffee, for some reason.

Oh, that reminds me. Josh left for the Philippines today. He's going to be there until September. Boo! My coffee buddy. We didn't get that chance to go to Barista's one last time before we never see each other again. I'm sad now.

Mm.. Yeah, Josh and I go to Barista's regularly since we started talking again. Aww. I already miss those days. We just went there on Tuesday, too. Haha. Ah, well.. Good times, good times.

Challenges.

Soooo.. It's been a while, huh? Well, here's a quick update.

1. Got kicked out.
2. Temporarily staying at a friend's.
3. Found a permanent (kindof) place to stay.
4. Finally leaving it all behind next month.

Honestly, I'm happy right now. I really am. I look at this as a chance to start new. I know it's going to be difficult, but I've accepted that. She thinks that I'm nothing without their support. She's so wrong. So very, very wrong. I know I can't always depend on my friends, but it's good knowing that they are there for me. Even worse, I know I can't always depend on Calvin. But, still. I don't know what I would do without him and his family. I've no idea how to thank them..

I don't know.. I really don't. I mean, I hope this all works out. It just feels like I'm going to become a burden. I'd hate for his parents to think of me in that way.. Ugh. I don't know.

The challenge: Find a job, start school.. Prove to you that I can be successful.

Congratu-fucking-lations.

You finally kicked your daughter out. Are you happy now? Or are you gonna fake some tears this Sunday at church? God fucking shit.

Honestly, I'm happy. I don't have to deal with your stupid shit anymore.

Coffee break.

So, I'm about to go out for the first time in.. Nearly a week. Great stuff, huh? I'm gonna go to Barista's with Sara. I need to talk to her about some things. Bleah. I dunno. I don't feel like going out. But I think I have to. Or at least, Calvin would want me to.

Anyways, let's just see how today goes.

106.

That's how many movies I have on my external HD.

LOL. I'm bored. Dad also gave me this pink external just for my pictures. Out of 286GB, I've already used up about 35GB. Awesome. That's in a span of four years, though. I haven't been taking pictures lately. Well, not since my trip to Minnesota.

Oh, so.. I think I'm gonna go out tomorrow. I might go out to eat with Chiara. Maybe.

Why maybe? That woman was pissed because I didn't want to go to church today. Know why I didn't want to go? Because I'm questioning my own fucking faith. Maybe I just need to lay off of the freaking religion for a bit. Know what she says? "Are you ashamed to go to church now?" Bull fucking shit. Sure, I'm ashamed. I'm ashamed to go to church with her. Bitch ass cunt.

That doesn't mean I'm ashamed of going because I haven't gone in a while. No. I just don't want to show up with her and be her little bitch. She's gonna fucking talk to me like nothing fucking happened. Fuck that noise.

Ugh. It doesn't help that she claims that she "owns the house" and I have to "follow her rules." Swear, I'm gonna move out. I don't know when, but I will.

Oh. She doesn't want me to go out or have people come over. Guess what? That's not gonna happen. Especially since Calvin may be coming here next month.

I don't know. Sara says we can stay at her place.. But I don't want that. It's not that I don't like her house or her family - I love them dearly. I just hate being a burden, you know? I want to be able to take Calvin out and such. And I don't want to end up using Sara's car for that. I'd rather drive that ugly truck.

Eh.. I'll see what happens.

iPod.

I actually did something today. Can you guess? Haha. Maybe. Well, I updated my iPod. I also ate more than I have these past couple days. Not exactly healthy eating. But, I ate.

Mom came into my room today. Told me to call my Uncle and stuff. All I said were two words to her. Lmao. "What?" and "'Kay." Since we're talking about her anyways.. I don't want to go to church with her anymore. I've taken a liking to just relaxing on Sundays.. Ugh. I miss Minnesota.

Oh, yeah. So, I guess you're wondering what I've been doing these past couples days. Maybe. Mm.. Nothing, actually. I wake up, text Calvin, eat (sometimes), go back to bed, use the computer, watch movies, webcam with Calvin, and sleep. Andd.. With a little bit of crying in between.

Bleah. I can honestly say that I'm a mess right now. I haven't gone out once since I've come home. Not including my orientation. If I had a choice, I wouldn't have gone to that.

Hopefully, I get to see Calvin soon.. If he does come in August, that's in two long weeks. And it's only been a week since I've come home.

Boo..

First star of the night.

I miss saying that.. Calvin and I used to go out and I would always point out the first star of the night.

I remember eating a banana split outside on Calvin's porch..

Man.. My last night in Minnesota, Calvin and I went to Brimhall (his old Middle School or maybe it was Elementary) and we just hung around the playground for a bit.

I miss that so much..

It hurts..

I can't do this. I'm always waking up at this time now. I miss Calvin so much..

Dear God,

Why?

Why do You have to do this to us?

M.I.A.

Ohhhh man. It's been a while, huh? Well, I'll keep it short and sweet.

I FINALLY MET CALVIN WOO.

Man, June 4th - July 10th will ALWAYS be the best days of my life. But, now that I'm home.. I feel like I'm dying. I've cried nonstop since I came home. EVERYTHING reminds me of the time I spent with him. I miss him so much. I never knew it would hurt to the point that I would cry every time he'd say "I miss you." I just think about the amazing time we had together and how we can't have that now. It hurts, you know?

I mean, I don't even want to do anything anymore. I just want to be back in Minnesota with Calvin. Honestly, they treat me as if I were a part of their family. Nothing like my own.

Fuck California.

Never going to happen.

You know, I want to reconcile with my brother. I really do. But after what people have been telling me, hell.. He can be that bitch he wants everyone to see him as.

You say I only come back because my friends get tired of me? No. You're just jealous because you have no friends who actually have your back when you need it most. Oh, you have a boyfriend? AND he has a job? Great. Just because you're gay doesn't mean you're completely different from everyone else in the world.

The only reason why I came back is because that whore of a mother wanted me home. Oh? What? Surprised? Yeah. Thought so.

Guess what? Dad wanted me home, too. Ooh.. Hurts, doesn't it? Fuck, man. You say you don't care, huh? So why don't you tell our loving parents that you're gay? Oh, right. You're afraid of rejection. What, are you afraid of what your mommy is going to do? Kick you out? Like she did to me?

So what if I'm 18. Is that the end of the world? It's a good thing I left this fucking house. I would've killed that woman by now. Then what? Mommy won't be here anymore. And you're left with dad. Who, for sure, will not be there for you once he finds out about Paolo. This doesn't mean I'm going to tell them.

Not like all the fucking times you told them about my past mistakes.

You're lucky that I still love you and I support you. Okay, you hate me. It hurts to know that you and I can't go back to how we used to be. Other than that, it's whatever. I find it funny that you hate me for such a stupid reason. You really thought I was trying to make people hate you? That's a whole lot of bull, dear brother.

You say you're going to wait for that time when I need to go to you. That's never going to happen either. I'm not giving you that chance to make me feel like no one cares about me. Know why? Because I know a lot of people who care. Because of all the shit you put me through, trust me, I know. Damn. And I still love you. I must really be one stupid person.

Oh, I'm leaving again. Happy? I'm not leaving because of mom or dad, though. They know about my trip. Enjoy the two weeks without me.

Commence Operation "Little Pop."

AHHHH.

I'm so excited.

Graduation.

I can't believe it. High School's over. Haha. Dangg. I am officially an alumni student from Tracy High.

This morning was.. A little hectic? Haha. I woke up at 6:30.. Got ready and all that jazz. I dipped hella quick at 7. Andd. Guess what? NO PARKING. Lmao! I was like, the hell? I had to park all the way BEHIND the Police Station.

Dude, walking two blocks in wedges was killer on my feet. Haha. Mostly 'cause the day before, I was wearing heels in the grass for the music video and I kindof twisted my ankle. LOL. I don't think I'll be dancing for a while this Summer. Boo. BOO.

Anyways, after the ceremony, I met up with Mama, Uncle Ben and my parents at that Chinese Buffet place. Haha. It was alriiiight. I saw Thomas and his family there.

After thaaaaat, I went home and knocked out. I was TIRED.

I'm still tired. Lmao.

I think it's time to just relax a bit. Yeah.. Just for a bit. Harhar.

Busy day.

Damn. Today was.. Bleah~!

Haha. Woke up at like, 8. Dangg. I was getting ready and cleaning up my room at the same time. That was difficult. Lmao. Well, this morning.. Chiara's family invited me to this spa.. Place. As an early graduation gift, you know? It was SUPER relaxing. Ohh man. I was like, not stressed at all after that.

When I should've been.. LOL.

You see, today was the final scene for our music video, "Wedding Dress." We basically turned it into short film. Haha. Seeing as it will be about 7 minutes long. Before our appoinment, I was texting/calling people. Asking if they were coming today or not. My phone was blowing up. Haha.

After that, I didn't even have a care in the world about how the whole shindig will go. LOL. All bad, huh? Who cares. It's over with.

I picked up chairs from Judel's place and went back home to set up. While I was setting up, I was also dying my hair. LOL. The last few nights, I've been attempting to dye it brown.. Didn't work. Haha. It's 'cause the blonde dye I had didn't want to re-dye the black I had dyed my hair a few months ago. Boo. BOO.

Anyways, people started arriving and whatnot. That was cool. We even had some last minute people come by. Lmao.

OH MAN. I did like, the worst blooper ever. LOL! So.. We were putting the rings on and I had to repeat after the priest.. Guy thingy. Well, Josh. Okay.. So.. He says, "Repeat after me. With this ring. Blahblah." Right? I said, "With this WING."

Oh, God. Embarrassing to the max.

Ahh! No more. Lmao. I'm gonna webcam with Calvin now~ Yay~ YAYY.

'Kay, bye!

What? High School's.. OVER?!

Yes. Yes, it is. No more Tracy High.

Man, all I have to say is.. Wow. High School has been the best four years of my life. I can't wait for what comes next.

Actually, I really can't. Lmao. In the next few weeks, I'll be preparing for my trip to Minnesota. Can you believe it? After nearly 4 long years, I'm finally going to see the love of my life. How exciting.

Mm.. Well, I need to catch up on some sleep. Haha. I got like two hours last night and I'm tired.

Finals - Last day.

YAY. YAYYYY.

No more HIGH SCHOOL Finals. Lmao. I took Chemistry and English today, though. I bombed Chemistry. Bad. LOL.. 'Kay. That's it, bye!

Well, that's it for Finals. I AM DONE. DONEEE.

Haha. So.. After school today, Chiara and I went to Kengo for lunch. Yummers. Then like.. We went home. Haha. Theeeeeen, I bothered mom for money 'cause I wanted to cut my hair. And I did. It's shorter now. And my head looks rounder. LOL.

After I got my hair cut, Chiara and I went to Walmart. I bought.. Make up sponges. And a thingy for my car. And a thin- Headphones. Lmao.

I'm home now. And talking to Calvin.

I'm doing a coffee run tomorrow for Mrs. Zimmermann and Mrs. Ahuja. Haha.

6:30 in the morning!

Finals - Day 2.

Spanish 3 and TA'ingg.

Lmao. Spanish was alright. I think I did fairly we- Ahh. I'm a liar. I bet you, I bombed that, too. Haha. You know? You're taking a test and you're like, "YEAH. I think I did HELLA good." But when you get the test back you're like, "Fuck."

TA'ing was alright. Haha. All Suhrab and I did was walk around the school and file and mail letters. Then, we were all done.. More referrals came in! What is that? Lmao. All bad. Suhrab was like, "Just leave it for tomorrow's TAs." Haha. We did.

I made a rose out of paper. Well, rose cube? It's like a cube.. That TRANSFORMS in a ROSE. WHOAAAA?!

Transformers! Robots in disguise~~~

I never watched the movies. Haha.

Anyways, after school. Allen, Jeffrey, Aaron, and I were finishing up the last few scenes. Chiara was there, too. Haha.

It was alright. I don't feel like talking about it right now. I SHALL SURPRISE YOU WITH THE VIDEO.

It will be posted June 6th. Lmao.

Finals - Day 1.

Holy, maaaaan.

Finals today were ehh. I think I bombed Pre-Calculus. Haha. Boo. BOO. Maybe. Calvin helped me study, so I think I did fine. Haha. Hopefully!

Economics was alright. It was a District Assessment, so it was fairly easy. Cool, cool.

I didn't really do much today. After school, I took Sara, Patrick and Chiara home. Well, Chiara was at my house for a bit. That was fun. Haha. She and I are going to try and hang out everyday before she leaves for Colorado. Mm.. I made milk tea and stuff.

At two, I left for Sara's 'cause we had to re-shoot the fight and letter scene. Once I got there, we were like.. Uh.. YEAH. I suggested we go back to my house because I have more.. "Fighting" space. Haha.

I think this one turned out better than last time. We added cars and falling and running and all that good stuff. Lmao. It was hella funny 'cause we kept trying to get Patrick to run in a serious way. LOL. First he looked constipated.. Then he looked pissed.. Then.. Yeah. Haha.

After we did thaaaaaat. We, uh.. Looked at my backyard. Tryna figure out what to do for the wedding scene. I think we can pull this off, huh? Yeahh. Good stuff.

Anyways, I think.. It's time for me t- OH, YEAH. I'm back home now. It's like nothing happened. Hmm.. I have a feeling the "talk" is going to come up sometime soon. Ahh. Boo.

But, yeah! Time to eat/study/procrastinate. Awesome.

Soap Operaaa.

So.. I'm watching this Chinese soap opera thingy with Sara's parents. LOL. It's kindof interesting. They keep telling me what's happening and stuff. Haha.

So today was pretty chill. Hella laid back, y'know?

But, yeah. I kept knocking out. LOL. Mm.. I took Sara to the mall around 5-ishish. 'Cause she went to go watch a movie with a friend. After I dropped her off, I went to go pick up Traci from Jojo's.

After I took Traci home, I went to go pay my phone bill. THEN. I went back to Sara's. Haha.

I had nothing to do, so I decided to make some milk tea. Yummers.

Now. It is time to study for Finals. STUDY TIME WITH MR. CALVIN WOO.

Coffee pot. Lmao.

Teaser.

I know. I've been posting a lot of videos lately. Haha. Mostly 'cause I don't know what to write about anymore.

ACTUALLY, today was kindof interesting. LOL.

Know how I was talking about going to the carnival thing to shoot a scene? Okay, so like.. What had happen was (Black chick talk. LOL).. But, yeah. So like.. We were doing a scene where Jett had to win me a bear, right? It was this one game where he had to throw darts at balloons. Jett missed ALL three. Lmao! We talked to the guy who ran the booth, though. We pretended that Jett won. But the guy looked at the camera. Ahh! I wonder if people will catch that. Hmm..

Anyways, yeah. We did the fight scene, too. That was interesting. Allen had to push me, but I was caught by Jett. Haha. I just noticed. I'm the one that always had to fall. Like, remember when I did this skit for church? Domestic violence! BJ had to push me while I was defending my son. Lmao. Ughh.

Anyways, I'm actually really tired. Everyone left for Denny's. Mm.. I think it's time to knock out. Maybeee. I'm on the phone with Calvin. Haha.

I'll talk to Calvin. Then maybe knock out.

Zzz..

Gah. I basically stayed up HELLA late last night. Know why? Because of Mrs. K.'s freakin' Menu Assignments. GUESS WHAT? I finished them ALL.

Suck on it, Mrs. K.

I didn't really get to study for Chemistry, though. Calvin knocked out. Oh, weeeeell. I did okay on the test. Lmao.

I was so tired. Even when we were shooting scenes for Wedding Dress. Today, we did the scenes where Jett and I meet and all that jazz. Haha.

Tomorrow, Jett and I are going on a "date" to the carnival thingy by the mall.

How exciting. Kindof. Jett's a bit of a horn dog. GROSS.

Milk tea.

I totally just made some. Andd. It. ROCKS.

Yummy, yum, yum.

Perfect Two.

2,2-Dimethylblahblah.

Organic Chemistry isn't that bad once you get the hang of it. Haha.

Calvin and I have been going at it for about two hours now. I think we're getting it. Kindof. I feel bad, though. It's almost two and he's still up helping me study. Rarar.

Two weeks.

Of school left. God, freaking yes.

I'm wondering, though.. I haven't been doing well in school because of all this jazz with my family. Been dealing with it for a while, you know? Now that college is just a couple months away, I'm like.. Fuck. What the hell have I been doing?

I'm scared. Since my acceptance at San Jose State was conditional, if I end up being rejected because of my grades, I have no where else to go.

Fuck my life.

Side job.

Woke up at two. LOL.

Wooooow. I was so tired because of yesterday. Seven hours of straight shooting. Well, with the occasional sit back and kindof screw around. Kindof. Haha.

We went to the park to film the scene where Allen sees me with Jett. Ooh, baby. What a twist. Haha. After doing that scene, I took some photos of Aaron, Jett, Allen and Patrick. Oh man. They look like a boy band. LOL.

I seriously need to come up with a watermark. 'Cause like, I think I'm getting better at taking photos, right? Possibly. Well, good enough to be considered.. Not amateur. LOL. Also, Allen's been setting me up with clients. $30 bucks per 40 photos. What do you think?

Ehh. I think 40 pictures is hellof.. Unless I do both landscape and portrait for each pose. Lmao. That won't work. Maybe.. I'm still wondering about how this is going to work. Haha. Like, what to do about prints? Or maybe just give them the photos on a disc? Hmm..

Rarar. We'll see. This reminds me, I gotta charge the battery for my camera. Haha.

Whoosh!

Saturday.

Woke up late. Didn't go to Saturday School. Lmao.. Next Saturday, for sure!

We start shooting for Wedding Dress today. I'm excited. I hope it turns out well. I'm trusting in Aaron's hardcore producing skills. Haha. I love that guy.

We used to play Basketball together back in Middle School.

Anyways, I'm hungry. Starving, actually. Food time! Food, food.

The City.

Went to Frisco today! It was totally freaking awesome to the freaking max.

Not really. Well, kindof. Haha.

I'm sore, tired and I just want to knock out. LOL. Let me tell you about my adventure today with Miss Sara Koo. It all started this morning..

We were at the BART, right? So like.. Yeah.. Buying our tickets and walking to the train and yayy. When we got onto the train, this black chick (obviously, she was kindof.. Eh) was talking to herself. Rather, talking to people on the train. They just weren't listening. Lmao. She kept asking me, "Is there really a God, honey? I don't believe in God. Who the fuck in this fucking world believes in fucking God?" Yeah.. She was referring to the cross Co Trang gave me for my birthday. Haha. Those words are italicized because they were hardcore exaggerated. Lmao.

Anyways, half way to San Francisco, this Asian guy sits next to her and says, "What's wrong with you?" And she goes, "I don't want to fucking sit next to a foo' like you." I'm like, whoaaaaa. Don't make eye contact. LOL. He continued to sit there, though.

We got off a couple stops later and ventured out into the streets of San Francisco. Haha. It took us a while to walk from the station to Pier 39. Mostly 'cause I was taking pictures. Lmao. So we got to Pier 39 and I started to take pictures of pigeons. Well.. I was following them around. Can you imagine? An Asian chick with a camera following around a bird. They never flew away, though. They just kept walking around. Haha.

We went into this store for left handed people. It was kindof cool. We went into hella stores. Haha. I actually don't remember them all. We got hungry, so Sara and I decided to eat clam chowder. We left Pier 39 and walked to this one place down the street. While we were eating, we watched street performers and stuff. Yayy.

THIS IS WHEN THE REAL ADVENTURE STARTS..

Sara's like, "Let's go to Market Street. They have all the stores and stuff." I agreed and we were off. Hey, guess what? PICTURE TIME.

Okay. So you guys know the streets of Frisco, right? It's like.. /\/\/\/\/\. Basically. LOL. There were actually more blocks, I just didn't want to add more lines. Haha. The red line is where Sara and I started off. ALL THE WAY AT THE BOTTOM. I was gonna put a big dot, but I forgot. I'll put it on the next one. Lmao. Anyways, the street we were on was Mason. We set off looking for Powell.

We were about there when we realized that Powell.. WAS THE NEXT STREET OVER.

The green line is Powell now. So Sara says, "I think Mason Street is back that way." Back the way we freaking came! So we set off looking for MASON. Think about it..

You guys love my drawings. LOL. But, yeah. We were about THERE when Sara said.. "Wait. My instincts are telling me that we need to go back up there. We're looking for Market, not Mason." EAgjleabgpeabBEAg. So we walked back up.

I'm getting bored of drawing now. SOOOO. Let's just say.. We walked back and forth about four more times after that. LOL.

My legs are going to hurt tomorrow. For sureeeee.

Zoom, zoom.

I'm beginning to have this thing for flying objects.

Strange? I think not.

Spending All My Time.

Last time, promise.

Didn't go to school again.. I had a legitimate reason, though! I didn't do my project. LOL.. I finished it, though. I just gotta memorize my oral. I even finished my powerpoint for English. Yayyy.

Awesome.

Mama Koo!

Allen needed some photos for his fliers 'cause the photos he sent in were all bad. Resolution's too low or some kindof jazz.

After I took their pictures, I knocked out for a couple hours. Haha. I woke up to a dog pile on my bed. Man.. Three guys are HEAVY. It was Jett, Allen and then, Marcus. Ahh! Brutal. They woke me up because they all wanted to go to a buffet. Haha.

So we went to that Chinese one on Tracy Boulevard. It was funny. There were like.. 6 of us. Allen, Jett, Marcus, Sara, Patrick and I. Haha. So like, when we walked in, we were all saying, "Mama Koo! I want an egg roll." And Sara's mom was like, yeah.. These are my kids.

Marcus and Jett were seeing who can eat the most. Jett won at the end. Oh mann. Good stuff. They were eating ice cream (6 scoops each). And like, Marcus was making disgusting noises so Jett can stop eating for a bit. LOL. Jett ended up bending the spoon to hold in his laughter.

Oh man. I haven't laughed like that in suuuuper long. Ugh. I'm so tired now, though. I don't even think I can stay up to do my project.

Time to try!

Mother's Day.

I. Don't. Care.

A.R. Ent.

So.. Today was alright. Allen had an interview, so Sara and I went with him.

Met a new guy. Jeff Avila. I keep wanting to call him Nick for some reason. Haha. Hmm..

Anyways, I'm hella tired. I dunno. It kindof seems like I'm not into anything anymore. I just want everything to be done with, you know? School and whatnot. I kindof just want to drop it and go on with my life.

I'm tryna move to San Jose after I come back from Minnesota.. Or when school lets out. Who knows.

One of those days.

It's my 4th or 5th time leaving the house. Wow..

This time, she can't do shit about it. Right now, I'm staying at Sara's house. Her family says I can stay until school's out.. But, I don't know.

I really don't know.

Three weeks.

Until school is out. I can do it.. Right?

Another month down.

Baby, we're another month closer until we finally get to see each other.

I can't wait to hug you, kiss you, and do everything with you. I love you so much, Calvin. I don't know what I would do without you. I know I can't live without you. It hurts to think about it. You're my world, baby. And I need you in my life.

I'm in love with you, baby. I know I am. I'm so blessed to have you as my boyfriend and my best friend. I know you don't believe in God, but I thank Him for bringing you back into my life.

I love you, Calvin. Always and forever.

Tomorrow.

Will be another month Calvin and I have been together. Man, they're passing by so quickly.

Baby, we're like the moon and the sun - Even though we're apart from each other, you're the light that keeps me shining. I can't wait until we're together; Underneath the same sky.

Cotillion weekend.

Man, the hotel was so much fun. Haha. We played hella games. Like, 10 Fingers, Charades, and Truth or Dare.

10 Fingers was hella fun! I was so close to losing 'cause the game started to get sexual. Lmao! Charades was fun. I had to act out "buying a car." It was.. Interesting. Truth or Dare was AWESOME. We kept making fun of Therese and trying to get her to do something kinky. We even got Leslie to give Dexter a lap dance. LOL.. I think we really loosened her up before the big day.

I remember Jennifer coming out with this long, decorative pillow attached to her crotch. LOL. It was so funny. 'Cause David was pretending to suck it and Christine was taking it from the back. Good stuff, good stuff.

I started to cry while saying my speech that I actually had to stop a couple times. Haha. Booooo. I think I did.. Okay, though. YEAH.

The event itself was really fun. I was so tired after performing. 'Cause like.. We did Tahitian, then right after, it was Hip Hop. I was super hot since I had to put on a jacket for Hip Hop after dancing Tahitian. Danggg.

I hella enjoyed myself. I missed Calvin hella much, though. I didn't get to text him until dinner, but I had to stop again 'cause of our performances.

After the event, we still had time until 10, we were dancing from like.. 8:30 - 9:45-ishhh. I took Jessica, David and Therese home. It was cute 'cause like, as soon as we got onto the freeway, they all knocked out. So I was bored the whole ride home.

Well, kindof. I was texting Calvin. Lmao. He actually kept me up.

As soon as I got home, I basically knocked out. I didn't even change my clothes or anything. Gross. I DIDN'T BRUSH MY TEETH. AHHH.

I brushed for hella days this morning, though. Minty freshhh.

Man, I'm still tired.

As for today..

Allen gave me the script for the music video. We're going to start filming this weekend. How exciting.

Ahhh. Yeah. I'm gonna talk to Calvin now.

Useless..

Calvin's not feeling well and there's nothing I can do about it.. God, it's times like these when I really want to be there with him.

Man.. I'm so selfish, I asked him last night to wake me up this morning. Hell, I even said that I wanted to stay on the phone while he was telling me to get ready.

You know, every time I heard him breathing hard, it hurt me. Knowing that he's sick, and that he trying his best to stay up just to talk to me, I started to cry.. Even when I shouldn't have been.



Someone answer me - Why am I so weak..?

Part two.

Calvin's Graduation gift came in today. YAY~! I hope he likes it. Haha.

I feel bad. I really want to go to the ceremony, but I'll be going to Minnesota in July.. Boo. Well, I'm super excited about giving it to him. <3

Ahh. I couldn't help it. Haha. Babe's gonna know about part two of my surprise. Kindof. He still doesn't know what it is yet.

Slacking.

It's been a couple days since I've posted something. Haha.

Because of practice and whatnot, I haven't been getting my homework done. LOL.. I'm always so tired that I end up knocking out hella early. Bleahhh.

I mean.. I even skip school just to catch up on homework. Lmao. So badd! Ugh. Kill me.

Tomorrow's the last day in Tracy, though. From 4 to 9. Damn. Today was a really productive day. We're almost done. One more transition, then it'll be clean up.

I'm tired..

Hell week.

They say practice every day this week. But, uh. I guess there isn't practice tomorrow. Cool.

Practice today was alright, actually. Fairly productive. We really cleaned it up. Mm.. I have all these cuts and stuff on my legs. Lmao. I don't even know where they're from.

We just might make it.

Anyways.. Calvin's taking his Behind-the-Wheel Exam tomorrow. That's exciting. And his performance with Jay and Harvey is Wednesday. I really want to see it. Haha.

Ugh. You know, allergies are seriously killing me. I get headaches and all that jazz. It's terrible during practic- God. I just felt a sharp pain on my right side..

I think I'm gonna rest a bit. Calvin fell asleep, so I have nothing to do.

A deeper understanding.

I'm scared.. And he knows it.

American Eskimo.

CAN YOU IMAGINE THIS NEXT TO KUMA?! If we breed this with a Chow Chow.. It'll be an American Eski-Chow.

Or some other stupid name I'll come up with. LOL.

Short, sweet..

And to the point.

That's how I like it. Don't know what I'm talking about? Well, ask anyone who went to practice and find out.

Lmao. Maybe I'll just vent. Again.

Unnecessary meetings. Awesome. You printed out the agenda for May 2nd. You didn't have to go over it like we're children. "This is what we're doing on that day. Don't forget. Questions? Ask me after practice." Oh, heyy. That took like, 5 seconds. Daaaamn. Record right there.

Because of that.. We didn't start until five. Not even, possibly close to 5:30. So, what? An hour and a half of repeating shit? Yeah, really productive. We're totally going to get this down before next Sunday. Good job, everyone. Proud of ya.

I love you more.

So Calvin and I are arguing about who loves the other more. LOL.

Man, we've been going at it for about an hour and a half. I think I'm winning. Haha. We're arguing about random shit, though. Like.. "I love you more because your mascot is a Bulldog." The hell? Lmao.

Haha. We're hella going at i-LOL. I lost..

Bleah. Bleahh! Cheater, baby.

I almost gave in when I saw this. LOL. I love MSN.

Nothing Without You.

"I wear my heart on my sleeve
and I don't care who sees;
I just wanna give you love.
Through the storm, through the rain;
Girl, I swear I'll never change.
'Cause baby girl, I'm so in love with you.
You can take everything.
'Cause it don't mean a thing
if I don't have your love.
Girl, you are the one thing I can't lose.
I'm nothing without you."